Chruylorgate
Disciple of Prayer
Hello,
I want to thank you for all the love, support, and prayer you have provided me these past few months as I have gone through school and trying to finish up my PhD. God has put something on my heart that I need to talk about and get some prayer for.
Over the past five years, I have become a silent addict to alcohol. Since 2020, I have drank excessively multiple times a month to numb. The main reason for this is because (1) the stress of the world from finances, school, and work, and (2) the hatred that I have for myself.
I have been told by others that I need to understand the concept of grace but I have a hard time grasping that Jesus can actually forgive me for my sins that I have committed. I feel like he has seen all that I have done and He could not possibly forgive me and love me.
All that to say, I know that I need to understand grace and forgiveness in order to forgive myself. I don’t want to drink anymore and keep going into this downward spiral for all this hate I have towards myself. I need God to show me the way in this area so I can move forward and heal.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. God Bless you all.
I want to thank you for all the love, support, and prayer you have provided me these past few months as I have gone through school and trying to finish up my PhD. God has put something on my heart that I need to talk about and get some prayer for.
Over the past five years, I have become a silent addict to alcohol. Since 2020, I have drank excessively multiple times a month to numb. The main reason for this is because (1) the stress of the world from finances, school, and work, and (2) the hatred that I have for myself.
I have been told by others that I need to understand the concept of grace but I have a hard time grasping that Jesus can actually forgive me for my sins that I have committed. I feel like he has seen all that I have done and He could not possibly forgive me and love me.
All that to say, I know that I need to understand grace and forgiveness in order to forgive myself. I don’t want to drink anymore and keep going into this downward spiral for all this hate I have towards myself. I need God to show me the way in this area so I can move forward and heal.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. God Bless you all.