Jennthebeliever
Disciple of Prayer
My husband and I are together for 20 years and married for 18 years. We have a teenage son and daughter. My husband's constant cheating makes me feel drowned in sad emotion every day. He has been cheating on me way before we got married. He doesn't seem to stop. Every year there is always one or two or more affairs. Every time I found out about it, I feel devastated. The pain is so strong like the sharp sword pierces through my heart. He will put blame on me every time I found out about his affairs and curse me like I am worthless. Every time he is out of station, there will be a girl. He spends more money on these girls than on his wife and kids. I can only cry and cry and cry. I don't share my problems with anyone. I keep it all bottled up. With so much pain, I numb myself with alcohol just to get some sleep. Sometimes I do pray to God to give me peace in mind and soul. I am too worn out with my husband's cheating habit. But I know I started to come to God in prayer more often than before. I felt calm a little. I've gone through a few Christian websites to help me learn more about God and prayers. Please pray for me to be a changed person the way God wants me to be and pray for my husband to stop cheating and God will turn his heart towards Him. Lord have mercy on my marriage. Amen.
