it doesn't look easy to you now, but when I was your age, I prayed for my future knowing that GOD could control it, just like you. and I was fishing with my future brother in law ,and I prayed please GOD I want to be a good person , if you hear me please, help me, there were houses by the lake ,and I was poor, and I said GOD, will I ever live that way.. and many years later I look back and I live in a house almost that nice, and GOD HAS BEEN WITH ME all the way , I tell you this because , you cannot even come to GOD unless He draws you, , and He HAS DRAWN you , HE IS WITH YOU,, HE WILL PROTECT YOU, and He will NEVER EVER LEAVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS , NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO.. he will never ever forsake you, and HE HAS HEARD YOUR PRAYERS. he will fulfill them.. GOD BLESS YOU, IN JESUS NAME.