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alisanh
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HI! Hope everyone is doing well! I have been living in a sober living house for almost a year-at which point I will graduate in a month and recieve my 1-year chip and can then move on to other things in the real world if that is God's will. The experience has been life changing and a blessing. I have renewed my relationship with God and know that my purpose to help other with the same problem. My kids are with their dad right now and he has custody so this has been difficult! But they will get thier mommy back! ANyway, I know it souns silly but I am nervous about my birthday night and graduating fro the prpgram. This has also been difficult especially for me because I have to attend meetings every day of the week-and I have done this for a whole ywar almost-and I have always had a problem with social anxiety. I know that being in a relationship with God and trusting in him that inferiority issues should be lifted if I am in his will. MOst of my character defects have been lifted but I still have a problem with self-esteem and insecurity. I am also still very hard on myself, especially if I don't live up to these expectations of myself. For example, I am one of the few that has lasted a whole year at which point I believe I should be speaking and chairing in meetings more but this is difficult for me because in my newfound sobriety I am more of an introverted person and I have always been quiet. I want to be a good example to those new people that come in the program but I must get over this negative mindset of myself and quit getting frustrated when I don't think I'm doing enough!
My prayer request is that I have the strenght to make it through this last month in the house and that I can pull through and "step up" and be a leader. Mostly, that my social anxiety will get better. After almost a whole year, I still get nervous before I speak-and to think I got to get up a speak in front of all those who love me on birthday night-I know this is a celebration and it's OK if good things happen so why do I make this such a big deal? I just don't want to disappoint anyone by being nervous and I have so much to share so I pray that there is nothing-like anxiety-that gets in the way of me helping someone else. Any tips on how to get over this would be helpful as well.
My prayer request is that I have the strenght to make it through this last month in the house and that I can pull through and "step up" and be a leader. Mostly, that my social anxiety will get better. After almost a whole year, I still get nervous before I speak-and to think I got to get up a speak in front of all those who love me on birthday night-I know this is a celebration and it's OK if good things happen so why do I make this such a big deal? I just don't want to disappoint anyone by being nervous and I have so much to share so I pray that there is nothing-like anxiety-that gets in the way of me helping someone else. Any tips on how to get over this would be helpful as well.