rwc777
Prayer Partner
I want to kill myself. I've prayed for relief and comfort and get silence. Why won't God help me? Why do I have to struggle like this?
have to struggle like this?
I don't see an end out of this bad situation.
I'm working a shitty job making nothing. They refuse to give me a fixed schedule so I can get another job, and of course the other, min wage jobs aren't paying **** either and also want open availability for part time hours, or else you're fired. I'm in a at will state I have no recourse.
My home life is abusive hell. I can't afford to seek an education for a better job, since I don't qualify...but I can't pay it out of pocket. Can't get a loan.
I'm in a shitty hamsters wheel going around and around in hell.
The only thing that kept me alive was being afraid of the after life, but it can't be much worse than this.
Please don't call the cops, I'm not actually going to kill myself right now though I want to die. The last thing I need for my mental health is a swat team taking me out in handcuffs like a common criminal, which is what has happened before.
My only dream is to die in a fatal car accident, or maybe kidnapped and murdered. Some freak accident where I die but not by my own hands. I'm a coward. I'd take cyanide pills, I hear you die right away, but they're apparently hard to get.
What I want most is for God to help me and he wont. "God won't give you what you can't handle" well I'm on the brink of suicide and too much of a coward to go through with it, so obviously I can't handle it!
Why won't God help me?
Update: I believe in God so if your views contradict that it's best to keep your answers to yourself...
have to struggle like this?
I don't see an end out of this bad situation.
I'm working a shitty job making nothing. They refuse to give me a fixed schedule so I can get another job, and of course the other, min wage jobs aren't paying **** either and also want open availability for part time hours, or else you're fired. I'm in a at will state I have no recourse.
My home life is abusive hell. I can't afford to seek an education for a better job, since I don't qualify...but I can't pay it out of pocket. Can't get a loan.
I'm in a shitty hamsters wheel going around and around in hell.
The only thing that kept me alive was being afraid of the after life, but it can't be much worse than this.
Please don't call the cops, I'm not actually going to kill myself right now though I want to die. The last thing I need for my mental health is a swat team taking me out in handcuffs like a common criminal, which is what has happened before.
My only dream is to die in a fatal car accident, or maybe kidnapped and murdered. Some freak accident where I die but not by my own hands. I'm a coward. I'd take cyanide pills, I hear you die right away, but they're apparently hard to get.
What I want most is for God to help me and he wont. "God won't give you what you can't handle" well I'm on the brink of suicide and too much of a coward to go through with it, so obviously I can't handle it!
Why won't God help me?
Update: I believe in God so if your views contradict that it's best to keep your answers to yourself...

