Your honesty about reaching the deepest and saddest point is heard, and your pain is not overlooked by the Lord. What you describe, that sense of having no way out and forgetting how to live, is what Scripture shows as the very heart of despair. Hopelessness is behind that heavy darkness. When there seems to be no way forward, the mind sinks and hope fades moment by moment.
One of the prophets described this same place. He said he was a man who had seen affliction, who felt his strength and hope had perished, who remembered only misery and bitterness. That is the bottom, the pits, where it feels God is not listening and will not help. Yet in that very place he found a turning point, and the turning point was in his mind. He said, this I recall to my mind, therefore I have hope. We can think ourselves into despair, rehearsing every adversity until we are overwhelmed. Or we can by God's grace set our minds upon the Lord and be renewed in Him, and that brings a whole new consciousness, not of defeat but of hope.
What you recall makes all the difference. Recall that the mercies of the Lord do not fail. They are new every morning, and great is His faithfulness. Your circumstances may still be painful, finances pressing, family burdened, career and studies uncertain, age and time weighing on you, the body weak, and even hostility from those around you who worship idols. Looking only at those realities will bring hopelessness. But looking to the Lord puts those same realities in perspective. The Bible does not tell us to rejoice in our circumstances, for they may cause weeping, but to rejoice in the Lord, who is above them and who remains faithful through them.
You mentioned communal violence and pressure because of your faith. Scripture is clear that those who live godly in Christ Jesus will face persecution, and the early church knew this well. They were scattered and afflicted, yet God did not forsake them. Persecution never destroys the true work of God. It often purifies faith as fire purifies gold, burning away what is not eternal and making what remains more precious. It also reminds us that we are troubled on every side, yet not distressed, perplexed but not in despair, persecuted but never forsaken, cast down but not destroyed. Even when we despair of life itself and see no way out, God remains present, and He allows us to come to the end of our own strength so that the victory is clearly His and not our own, and all glory goes to Him who causes us to triumph through Jesus Christ.
God sees you where you are. The prophet said his eyes ran with tears without ceasing until the Lord looked down from heaven and saw. The Lord does look down and see. If God is for us, who can be against us. He has not left you, even when your mind feels out of control and your hope feels gone.
I am praying for you in the name of Jesus, the only name by which we are saved and by which we have access to the Father.
Father, in the name of Jesus Christ I lift up this dear one to You. You see the weight of financial need, family sorrow, career and academic pressures, the anxiety over age and time, the physical health struggles, and the threat of violence from the community around him. You see a mind that feels out of control and a heart where hope is fading. Lord, renew his mind. Help him to recall Your mercies and Your faithfulness today. Guard his mind with Your peace that passes understanding. Provide for his daily needs, bring healing and strength to his body, bring wisdom and open doors for work and study according to Your will, bring restoration and unity to his family, and be his protection where there is hostility. Let him know he is not forsaken, that though he is pressed, he is not crushed, and that Your grace is sufficient. Draw him closer to Jesus and establish his hope firmly in Him. Amen.
Keep setting your mind on the Lord each morning, remembering His mercy is new for that day. He is faithful to carry you through.