Dear Rterriat,
About a week ago I was having the same difficulties. I started doubting Christ. I didn't doubt that He was real, but I doubted that he cared about me. I felt like he had abandoned me. What got me through was remembering that God would never abandon me, I had just pushed him away. Instead of giving it completely to God and his will, I tried putting it all on my own shoulders. I prayed for my prayers to be answered, but then still kept them hidden deep inside me, not really turning them over to him. My prayer for you tonight is that you take everything you've been caring around with you, and just give it to God. Completely throw your hands in the air and give him everything. You life, your marriage (if you are married), your children (if you have any), your everything. Leave nothing out, give it to him. Become like Job and instead of doubting God's love for you, give him everything and show him you know he is there. Our God will never turn away, he's there for you every single day, you have just got to give him all your cares. Be blessed my friend.
