Ylxuathor
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray for me, for my reputation is being attacked and it all started with my husband's family, and my husband caused all this. He never stands up for me. I have no family around me except for my husband and young children. We moved into our home in ### away from his family and everything for the first time was going smoothly. I thought he had changed and then things started getting out of hand. He started nagging for unnecessary things and I, always being a quiet person throughout our marriage, got tired of it all and started fighting back because I thought standing up for myself would make him stop belittling me, but it made things worse. He started sharing our problems with his sister, brother, and father, knowing his sisters would start a scandal about me like they always do. And although they know my husband has been the one hurting me all those years, they just were glad for the opportunity to ruin my reputation. People have me before ever getting to know me, some who were close to me I started avoiding because I could sense in my spirit they weren't for me. Since ###, I'm fighting a battle; my reputation has been under attack, all because I stood up to my husband. I had a history of him hitting me and the last time he hit me, I told him make it be the last or the next time he does it he'll regret. Although he never hit from that day, he has been doing worse, embarrassing me and disgracing me in the neighborhood for the little mistakes I make in the home, like forgetting to take out the garbage or washing or putting my shoe on the front door mat, or not being able to do something around the home because I was feeling unwell. He will call me lazy if I came home from work tired and couldn't do much and all these things cause people in the neighborhood to look down on me. Everywhere I go, I could hear the negative things people saying about me, things like I don't do anything for my husband and I have my husband washing his own clothes, when he's the one who chose to do so all because I asked him to help me out. He told me don't wash his clothes again. He takes pleasure in humiliating me and he tells me he doesn't care who hears and now I'm being targeted. I live in fear and I isolate myself, I don't trust people around me anymore because I see everyone sympathizing with my husband because they think I'm causing conflict in my husband's life while it is not so. He will pick a fight over unnecessary things and when I finally sound my voice, he stops arguing. Sometimes I ask myself if I'm with a human. Many times I regret ever meeting him because of how people look down on me. I was always a quiet and humble person; now all I hear people saying is that I'm fake and I'm pretending to be who I'm not. I started locking myself away because I don't want to hear it all anymore. I want to run away from it all so bad but my ### children are involved; I don't want to neglect them. My husband is a happy man because he has me all for himself, and he has everyone on his side fighting against me. It's as if he enjoys seeing me hurt. I don't know if this is God or a spiritual attack on my life, but it's been going on since I moved in with my husband in his parents' home ### years ago and now we moved into our home since ###, it seems to have gotten worse. Instead of a house against me, it's a whole community and my husband will say out loud "people think you good, but you ain't nothing." So I know now my husband was a part of turning people against me and not just his sisters. Please pray for me, I don't know why I'm going through all this and I have no one to turn to. I've been praying but it seems things have gotten worse, I feel so uneasy lately like others are against me. Please pray for my deliverance, I feel depressed, I've been isolating myself since ###, and feel guilty doing so as if I've done everyone wrong. I'm a natural empath but now I need a shoulder to lean on. I have nobody, all because of my husband and his sisters. People think I'm a horrible person by what is being said about me but I'm not, I just want to be seen and heard by the man I love but all I get are insults and exposed for my reactions to his disrespect. Now I feel I don't fit in, so I'm avoiding everyone in the neighborhood. Please pray that God will vindicate me, but if this is His test for me that I am blessed with strength to endure. Thank you for prayers. God bless.