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jeffjacobson
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Please help. There is an overwhelming power of sadness and failure in me. It's all I can do to stay alive right now. I can't stop thinking of dying. I just want all this suffering I feel to end. I know it's selfish, but the feelings are relentless. I keep crying out. What am I supposed to do? I have a wife and two sons. I can't do this to them. I hide away when it all becomes overwhelming so they don't have to see their father this way. My wife doesn't understand ("just stop it") she says. How? If I could stop it, I would. Please pray for me. I don't know what else to do. When I close my eyes, it whispers "just do it, let it all end, stop the suffering, everyone will understand, it's ok." GOD help me. My life doesn't matter to me, but I don't want to be the source of this kind of pain to my children. I can't let it win. Please pray for my strength, let God's strength fill and protect me, let me find peace. In Jesus' name, I ask.
