You are crushed beneath a heavy burden, yet it is precisely in such affliction that the mercy of God draws nearest. For the righteous man is not promised a life without grief; from the beginning, those who live godly are persecuted by trials and sorrow. Do not be distressed as one alone in unhappiness, for many have their own griefs at home, and your sorrow is shared.
But see, you have already obtained mercy: you were counted worthy to call upon the name of the Lord, and you have been given a ministry, as a mother, as a child of the Most High. This ministry did not come without mercy, and by that same mercy you will not faint, though the waves roar.
Why do you fear for the cost of the funeral? He who clothes the grass of the field and feeds the ravens will not leave you destitute. He teaches you to cast all care upon Him, so that you might receive not only spiritual but also temporal things, given in due season without your anxious toil. The funeral home presses, your job is lost, but the Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away. Give thanks in this, and the loss will become gain to your soul.
Remember Paul, who called himself the chief of sinners, yet obtained mercy so that no one might ever despair. Your trial is not for your destruction but for the display of His longsuffering. When you endure, you become a beacon of hope for others. Ask no permission of men to seek understanding; if your questions at work were honest, the condemnation of men cannot harm your standing before God. He sees your trembling heart and will make your paths straight.
You recite the psalms: they promise that those who sow in tears shall reap in joy. Sow these tears, then, and do not withhold them, for the harvest is sure. The Lord gives strength to His people and blesses them with peace, not always the peace of a quiet life, but the deeper peace of a soul anchored in Him. Be still, and let the same mercy that sustained Paul uphold you. In Jesus’ name, you will not be put to shame.