Rupgon
Disciple of Prayer
Dear Lord please forgive me for my sins and the least perfect the least deserving I know I don't deserve to ask but I will ask I have tried everything I have tried till my strength have failed me and I am still trying I have gone angry I have gone mad I don't understand anymore I see everybody else changing moving forward but yet here I am stuck can I have a hard worker I am a good boy I go out my way to be a good boy but yet I am the one who gets the least I am the one who is a slave I am the one who doesn't eat while everyone does it's not funny at all I want food and money not today not tomorrow yesterday last month the year before 5 years ago 7 years ago I needed food and money pls Lord only these things can fix me only it can heal me i will be okay and normal once they call me I cannot starve for days but work hard for days I've been expect me to be grateful or happy when I eat scraps I pick food from the trash to eat I eat leftovers and remains to survive and I have prayed I have worked hard yet nothing to show for it it's like my life is a joke a mockery and I have complain and pray to you about it cry to you about it but nothing has changed for years my brother was contemplating suicide because of hardship of living I brushed it off and told him everything will be okay but I don't know if everything will be okay I am tired just as he is tired I am beyond tired and I am the one who is supposed to fix everything in the family I'm yet I am feeling ignored rejected by everybody until they need something until they want to treat me like a slave again I am Cinderella with the Cinderella story I am the housemaid the errand boy the slave the one who gets used and abuse and ignored it was not like this I came from a good home a good mother until she died you know all this you know my life I am in pain I did not have a childhood because i have been trying to survived I'm still trying to survive I'm a ghost a zombie I am not living I am not even surviving Lord pls help i have had Faith till it broke I'm hanging by a last thread pls save me bless my work

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.