Rico
Beloved Servant
I was under the impression from God that I do things a lot out of fear including things that, with the right motives, can be greatly beneficial spiritual disciplines. For example, I had fasted for the situation I keep asking prayers for. I believe God impressed on me to let go and let Him. Not that fasting does not have its rightful place but I for one did it because of fear, not trusting that my prayers will be answered. I do believe God still honored my feeble attempts and blessed even this kind of fasting but I was under the impression to stop for now. To tell you the truth, I stopped today and now I'm trembling in fear. Fearful that the meeting on Thursday will not be blessed by God and that Kelly will need to continue suffering the consequences, and all of us really. But please stand in prayer with me that my fears will leave me, that I can indeed believe and trust in God with my whole heart. And please pray that he will send encouragement, strength and peace and quick help for this awful situation we are in. I guess all of this showed me how much healing my own heart still needs. An awful lot. I too need deliverance from spirits of fear, panic, unbelief, distrust, rage, unforgiveness, and I need more of His love according to Romans 5:5 and also trust, faith, hope, peace. We all do. My mom and Kelly, and those in my family who don't believe yet, my sister, my father, my grandma who is in her mid-90ies.... Btw, now it seems that my dad will accompany my sister to the meeting on Thursday together with Kelly. Please pray that God will use my dad to speak truth to my sister and steer her toward the path of healing, also all of the ones my sister will talk to and that the truth will prevail. Thank you for continuing to pray. May God be glorified, even in my utter weakness and failure or even despite of it. Thank you Jesus.
