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Broken
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Lord forgive me for lust, backsliding, causing offense, and being offended. THe harder I try to overcome my sin, the more it seems to come back to me, I fear that God cannot forgive me if this continues. I'm tired of it and want it to stop but lack the ability to do so on my own, I need Your help Jesus. I find myself always backsliding into lust, anger, and offense. The lust I have never acted upon as my shyness often keeps me from approaching women and even when I manage to overcome that I am rejected out of hand, yet it always seems to float around the back of my mind and causes me to look at and do things I should not. I want to save myself until marriage (if that ever happens) but fear that I will lack the strength to do so if anyone will ever give me a chance at a relationship. The anger I manage to suppress most of the time but still the irritation over minor mistakes and aggravations (at work particularly but even just minor things in traffic and other times) flares up occasionally and even though I manage most of the time not to express it, it is still there and I feel guilt for feeling the anger in the first place. The times when I let it out I invariably cause offense in another and I find myself offended over even such minor things that it sickens me. I find myself to be loathesome and disgusting. All of which just feeds the shyness and loneliness and causes me further pain in that area. Please forgive my sins, please help me turn my back on them, please help me find companionship as the loneliness is causing me physical, emotional, and mental anguish to the point it is affecting my work. Overall please guide me and give me direction. I need you Lord, I need to yield myself fully to you, please help me do so.
