Plonyva
Prayer Partner
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I've been struggling to quit porn from over the past few years, and this year finally when I decided to quit and change some other things are well..things end up wrong, i mean one fine day I quit, for a week or so I live according to the word and one fine day I go back to my sin and this guilt and condemnation keeps haunting me..points me out that how bad of a sinner I am
From last month I've been going through a lot,I'm in my final year of college and working towards getting a job, I was doing fine in the beginning, out of no where, I stopped studying, I lack motivation and I kept procrastinating a lot, all I do is skip meals, eat chips, sleep in the mornings and watch porn..
To break this cycle I decided to do some basic chores to keep me moving..it worked for a week and today, I've been worshipping, and everything..I had control over my thoughts until today, when finally everything's good, I'm back to sin again..and the worst part is that I can't pray anymore, whenever I close my eyes in prayer..I can't do it, like if I stay for more than a minute, my mind keeps telling me that someone's gonna choke me or put a hand on my shoulder or touch me..and for the context, I live with my roommate in the dorm and she's home for holidays..so it's just me..this feeling of fear and unworthy of praying is killing me..
I don't know what to do, I've been crying and trying to pray, I read the Bible just now and gave up. I need help, please pray for me.
Please I need some guidance
..Guide and tell me what I can do in this situation
I've been struggling to quit porn from over the past few years, and this year finally when I decided to quit and change some other things are well..things end up wrong, i mean one fine day I quit, for a week or so I live according to the word and one fine day I go back to my sin and this guilt and condemnation keeps haunting me..points me out that how bad of a sinner I am
From last month I've been going through a lot,I'm in my final year of college and working towards getting a job, I was doing fine in the beginning, out of no where, I stopped studying, I lack motivation and I kept procrastinating a lot, all I do is skip meals, eat chips, sleep in the mornings and watch porn..
To break this cycle I decided to do some basic chores to keep me moving..it worked for a week and today, I've been worshipping, and everything..I had control over my thoughts until today, when finally everything's good, I'm back to sin again..and the worst part is that I can't pray anymore, whenever I close my eyes in prayer..I can't do it, like if I stay for more than a minute, my mind keeps telling me that someone's gonna choke me or put a hand on my shoulder or touch me..and for the context, I live with my roommate in the dorm and she's home for holidays..so it's just me..this feeling of fear and unworthy of praying is killing me..
I don't know what to do, I've been crying and trying to pray, I read the Bible just now and gave up. I need help, please pray for me.
Please I need some guidance
..Guide and tell me what I can do in this situation

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.