Selah12
Prayer Partner
Please pray for me as I am experiencing a great deal of anger, frustration, and despair on a DAILY basis!! I find it hard to get out of bed and face another day. I recently lost my father, who was 85 years old. For the past five years or so, I have experienced an enormous amount of despair, seeing my father go down and hardly being able to walk. I felt helpless and sad, seeing him lose his strength and his mind deteriorating from Dementia. Then, three weeks ago today, we lost him.
I am saddened that my father never saw me rise to be successful at anything in life! Instead, he witnessed someone who was very angry and frustrated with life, someone who alienated herself from others.
My mother, who is 84, spends all her time looking after my sister who is 56 years old. She is bipolar schizophrenic, and it is VERY DIFFICULT to try to have any peace because she is constantly demanding attention from my mother, or expecting my mother to do for her. It makes me feel hopeless, depressed, and angry. I keep wondering why did this have to happen? Why couldn't my only sister be normal and be able to have a normal life?
I feel like I have been given a very bad deal in life and I am very angry at God about it!!!! That's why I find it hard to believe in anything good happening to me and why I don't even bother to pray!!! Why is life so boring and so hard and so full of struggles and strife and disappointment?
I thought I might make something of myself before my father died, but that didn't happen. Now, I feel like what is the use? I don't have him here to make him proud of me. I don't even have him to talk to about my fears and worries, anymore. It saddens me that I didn't try to get out and attempt to make it while he was around to help me. Now he is gone, forever. Life is so unfair!!!!!
I am saddened that my father never saw me rise to be successful at anything in life! Instead, he witnessed someone who was very angry and frustrated with life, someone who alienated herself from others.
My mother, who is 84, spends all her time looking after my sister who is 56 years old. She is bipolar schizophrenic, and it is VERY DIFFICULT to try to have any peace because she is constantly demanding attention from my mother, or expecting my mother to do for her. It makes me feel hopeless, depressed, and angry. I keep wondering why did this have to happen? Why couldn't my only sister be normal and be able to have a normal life?
I feel like I have been given a very bad deal in life and I am very angry at God about it!!!! That's why I find it hard to believe in anything good happening to me and why I don't even bother to pray!!! Why is life so boring and so hard and so full of struggles and strife and disappointment?
I thought I might make something of myself before my father died, but that didn't happen. Now, I feel like what is the use? I don't have him here to make him proud of me. I don't even have him to talk to about my fears and worries, anymore. It saddens me that I didn't try to get out and attempt to make it while he was around to help me. Now he is gone, forever. Life is so unfair!!!!!
