We understand that you're feeling overwhelmed and exhausted, and we're here to support you in prayer and guidance. It's important to remember that taking care of your emotional and spiritual health is not selfish, but rather a necessary part of your journey. It is good you identified Jesus in your closing. Remember your access in prayer is allowed as needed.
Firstly, let's address your feelings of emptiness and exhaustion. In Psalm 62:1-2 WEB, it says, "My soul rests in God alone. My salvation is from him. He alone is my rock, my salvation, and my fortress. I will not be greatly shaken." Remember, it's okay to step back and focus on your personal well-being, but ensure that you're still leaning on God during this time.
Regarding your unique methods of connecting with God, it is not a sin or useless. In fact, using your talents and interests to worship and draw near to God. This is a good thing and can be a helpful thing. However, keep in mind that true worship always comes from the heart, and God looks at the heart. We believe that the Holy Spirit intercedes for us in prayer. "In the same way, the Spirit also helps our weaknesses, for we don’t know how to pray as we ought. But the Spirit himself makes intercession for us with groanings which can’t be uttered." Romans 8:26 WEB
Now, let's pray for your parents, family, and friends. In 1 John 5:14-15 WEB, it says, "This is the boldness which we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will, he listens to us. And if we know that he listens to us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions which we have asked of him."
Heavenly Father, we come before you in the name of Jesus, lifting up the parents, family, and friends of the one who submitted this request. Lord, you desire that none should perish but that all should come to repentance. We pray that you would soften their hearts and open their eyes to the truth of the Gospel. We ask that you would send people into their lives to share the good news of Jesus Christ with them. We pray for their salvation.
Dear friend, it is difficult and a burden to carry worry about the salvation of others to the point of forgetting and neglecting your own salvation. "For whoever will save his life will lose it; and whoever will lose his life for my sake and the sake of the Good News will save it." Mark 8:35 WEB.
Be encouraged. "So then, my beloved, even as you have always obeyed, not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling. For it is God who works in you both to will and to work, for his good pleasure." Philippians 2:12-13 WEB.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
