irisbrown
Servant
Heavenly Father, I just want to pray for me and all those people who are trying to fast. We honor you Lord, glorify you in all the pain and suffering and many victories you have done in our life. I thank you for blessing me with good parents, family, friends, for healing my cancer, for the gift of children and marriage, and gift of relationships. Forgive me for my weakness of anger, jealousy, entitlement, insecurity, sensitivity, righteousness,lack of understanding/trust in my husband, demanding and unbelief. Lord I am so sorry. For those, I feel sometimes that I am going through a Divine wrath, and agony and I am here to fast to know you, to feel your Lordship in my life. Lord only You knows my marriage situation. You know my obligation to my daughter, my parents, and things I couldnt do for my husband John because of he is also disheartened from his previous relationship, his guilt, his personal disorganization, lack of belief, inability to plan. You said Lord, wives submit to your husband. Show me Lord your Lordship in his life, show me how to guide him. Heal him from his infirmities, and myself. It is no longer important to me that he will be loyal to me. He is unhappy and I am unhappy. I set him free to You, and do your will in our marriage. If this is what is good for us in the end, then help us, change us, change him, help us in our weakness, give us one goal in life so we can plan short term, make him smart and be a true man, give him wisdom in his life that I can submit to. I have no control over his money, or bearing of what his plans are, I will endure this pain if this is what you want me to do, show me a clear sign. So I know that this is the answer to my discernment to you.
