Your low and lonely cry has come before us, and we take it tenderly to the throne of grace. You speak of word curses, even words spoken unawares over yourself, and of a heaviness that makes you feel unconnected, depressed, and unsure of your worth in Christ. Hear this good news, that Christ has set us free, therefore let us not go back into bondage, nor sit still as though we were in prison. God has set forth Christ Jesus to be a propitiation through faith in His blood, and salvation is wholly in Christ, in Christ alone. No utterance of your lips, no accidental word, can hold you in chains where the blood of the Lamb has made atonement. If you have trusted Him to be your sole and only Saviour, God has accepted you in Him, and that bond is broken in Jesus name.
You tell us you have felt very lonely, not connected to anyone. No believer traverses all the road to heaven in company, and our Lord knows this path well. In the garden and afterwards He was quiet as a lamb, surrendering Himself to the sacrifice, and in that dread hour He sank as into a sea of comfort with this truth, the Father is with Me. Even amid thick darkness the Father was with Christ, working those very sufferings for good, and He is with you now. Christ alone was tempted in all points like as we are, though without sin, and He understands your loneliness from within. You are not unseen. You are not unloved.
You question your value and worth in Christ. Let this settle your heart. All who are in Christ are perfect in Christ Jesus. When God chose His people He chose Christ and all His people were chosen in Him. Though you feel frailty and weakness, though distresses afflict you and Satan assaults you, you are perfect in Christ. You were crucified in Him, buried in Him, risen in Him, and made to sit in heavenly places in Him. What will do to live with in times of pain and depression of spirit but Christ himself. Christ in you is the hope of glory, not gold in the vault but gold in the pocket, Christ possessed, Christ experienced in the inmost soul by the Holy Spirit. Your worth is not measured by feeling, but by your union with Him. In His favour is life, and your life is not dependent upon yourself, but is safe in your Lord, for Christ liveth in you.
You ask to hear God's voice clearly and to know direction, and for happiness and faith to increase. The right of a sinner to come to Christ does not lie in the sinner, nor in any feelings which the sinner may have had, it lies in the fact that Christ commands him to come. Come then, just as you are. Do not leave that precious Book hidden away in the drawer, as Christ in prison. Open it, and God will look down upon that Christ set forth in the Word and bless it to you. Faith in the Lord Jesus Christ which saves the soul shows itself in forsaking what He condemns and obeying what He commands, and as you walk near to Him, your faith will be enlarged and your receiving power will take in more of Christ. In proportion as you get near to God you enter into the full enjoyment of that life which Jesus gives and preserves in you by His Spirit.
We join you in prayer that your heart, thoughts, mind, body, spirit and soul may be aligned with God's perfect will, that you may be open to the things of God and receive a fresh anointing to endure and overcome. While He works in us mightily our life is active and powerful, for Christ is our life, but He works in us through His Holy Spirit who dwells in us evermore.
We pray with you concerning marriage, that God would prepare you for a husband and prepare the right man for you according to His holy ordinance, which is a lifelong covenant of one man and one woman. We ask the Lord to keep you both in purity and faith, to make you ready in character and holiness, and to order your steps in His perfect time, that your home, when He gives it, may be built upon Christ.
We pray also for this season of moving, in which you have felt much warfare. May the Lord make your going out and your coming in to be in peace, may the place you go to be blessed and protected, and may the Lord in His kind providence supply furniture and provision and all things needed to make it a home. When your time of trial comes, you will do well to go to the spot where the Lord has helped you in the past, and where you have enjoyed hallowed fellowship with Him, and there to trust Him again.
And we bring before the Lord your body and your request for protection and healing. We ask that He who gives His angels charge over His people would keep you, strengthen you, encourage you, and cause you to stay on the right track, that He would bestow spiritual gifts as He wills for your edification and for His glory. We ask for His mercy upon this infection, that this round of medicine may be made effectual by His hand, or that He would show you clearly what else to do, for all healing is from Him.
Let us pray together. O Lord our God, set forth Christ before this soul as all sufficient propitiation, and let faith drop into the arms of Jesus and be safe there. Break every chain that would bind, and let this dear one rejoice in liberty this very hour. Be near in loneliness, as Thou wast with Thy Son, and make Thy presence felt. Reveal worth and value in Christ, show perfection in Him, and let Christ dwell richly within. Speak by Thy Word, give direction, increase faith and give true happiness in Thyself. Prepare this life for whatever Thou hast ordained in marriage, and keep it holy. Bless this move, guard the dwelling, provide all that is needed, and let the home be set apart for Thee. Anoint afresh by Thy Spirit to endure and overcome, and lay Thy healing hand upon the body, that this infection may depart and strength return. We ask this through Jesus Christ our Lord, who loved us and gave Himself for us. Amen.