Our hearts ache for you, dear one, as we read your words, and we are deeply grieved by the pain and loneliness you are carrying. But we want you to know—with absolute certainty—that you are *not* unseen. The God who formed you in your mother’s womb, who counts every hair on your head, who collects every tear you cry in a bottle (Psalm 56:8), *sees you*. He is not a distant force "out there," but a loving Father who is closer to you than your very breath. The fact that you think of Him often is no accident—it is the Holy Spirit drawing you to the only One who can fill the emptiness and heal the brokenness you feel.
The enemy of your soul wants you to believe the lie that you are alone, that your pain will never end, and that death is the only escape. But that is *not* the truth. Jesus said, **"The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly"** (John 10:10). Suicidal thoughts do not come from God—they are an attack from the devil, who seeks to devour you (1 Peter 5:8). But Jesus has already *defeated* him, and He offers you *life*—not just survival, but abundance, purpose, and hope.
You mentioned PTSD, and we want you to know that your trauma does not define you. God is the God of redemption, and He specializes in taking what was meant for evil and turning it for good (Genesis 50:20). The pain you carry may feel overwhelming, but it is not greater than the power of Christ in you. **"We are pressed on every side, yet not crushed; perplexed, yet not to despair; pursued, yet not forsaken; struck down, yet not destroyed"** (2 Corinthians 4:8-9). You are still here because God has a purpose for your life—one that the enemy is terrified of. Do not let Satan win by giving up now. Your story is not over.
As for love—oh, beloved, the love you long for is already yours in Christ. Human love may fail, but **"God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us"** (Romans 5:5). Jesus *is* love (1 John 4:8), and He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5). He is the bridegroom to the lonely, the father to the fatherless, the friend who sticks closer than a brother (Proverbs 18:24). You are not abandoned. You are *cherished*—so much so that Jesus endured the cross to prove it. **"In this is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son as the atoning sacrifice for our sins"** (1 John 4:10).
We must also address something critical: you mentioned that you think about God often and hope "something out there could see you." Friend, God is not a vague "something"—He is *someone*, and His name is Jesus Christ. There is no other name under heaven by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12), and it is *only* through faith in Jesus that we have access to the Father (John 14:6). If you have not yet surrendered your life to Christ, we urge you to do so now. Confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, and you *will* be saved (Romans 10:9). This is not just about eternal life—it is about *this* life. Jesus is the answer to the emptiness, the healer of your wounds, and the one who will walk with you through every dark valley.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of this precious soul who is crying out in despair. Lord, You see their pain, their loneliness, and the weight of PTSD they carry. You know the depth of their sorrow and the lies of the enemy that whisper hopelessness into their mind. But we declare *truth* over them now: **"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted. He saves those who are crushed in spirit"** (Psalm 34:18).
Father, we rebuke every suicidal thought, every spirit of despair, and every lie that says this person is alone or unloved. We bind the enemy’s influence in their life and command these thoughts to flee in the mighty name of Jesus Christ. Holy Spirit, fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Remind them that their life has purpose—that You have plans for them, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give them a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11).
Lord, we ask for divine connections—godly friends, mentors, or a church family who will surround them with Your love. Heal their heart from past wounds and restore their joy. If they have not yet surrendered to Jesus, soften their heart to receive Him as Lord and Savior. Let them experience the depth of Your love in a way they never have before.
Father, we ask for supernatural strength for each day. When they feel like giving up, remind them that You are their ever-present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). Give them the courage to seek professional help if needed—therapy, counseling, or medical support—knowing that You work through these means to bring healing. And above all, let them *feel* Your presence in a tangible way. May they wake up each morning with a sense of Your nearness and go to bed each night knowing they are held in Your hands.
We thank You, Lord, that You are already at work in their life. You are the God who turns mourning into dancing (Psalm 30:11), and we trust You to do that for them. In the mighty and matchless name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.
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Beloved, we urge you to take practical steps alongside prayer:
1. **Reach out for help.** You do not have to walk this alone. Find a Bible-believing church where you can be surrounded by community. If you are in immediate danger, please contact a crisis hotline or a trusted person in your life.
2. **Meditate on Scripture.** Write down verses about God’s love and speak them over yourself daily. Some to start with: Psalm 139, Romans 8:38-39, Isaiah 41:10, and Deuteronomy 31:8.
3. **Worship.** Put on praise music and lift your voice to God, even if you don’t feel like it. Worship shifts our focus from our circumstances to His greatness.
4. **Flee isolation.** The enemy attacks most fiercely when we are alone. Even if it’s hard, push yourself to connect with others—call a friend, join a small group, or serve somewhere.
You are *not* a mistake. You are not forgotten. You are *loved* with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3). Hold on, dear one. The best is yet to come.
