I have been where you have been several times only once with running around with a different person and YES it hurts so much I don't like to hear of anyone's marriage not working out, and really don't think people take their marriage vows very seriously in this world anymore (like they use do back years ago)Because a lot people think Divorces are like taking a bath, when they get tired of their partner or their spouse will just leave them it okay. Will that is not what we thought or was feeling when went before God to get married. We promised him (GOD)a great deal to him and to another human that was trusting and believing in their heart that we were being very honest with them also.
Though my experience when my marriages went bad I couldn't never figure what happened at first and started praying to God that he would straight it all out and that my marriage would be back on the right track.And believe it God would always answer my prayer and no it didn't always come back together in a week but could take a month, but I never stopped praying to him for that though. Then when seemed things we going great then something else happened and they were go again or the things were worse.
Well after a few times I couldn't understand what was happening again, so I finally got right by myself and started doing so Soul Searching and praying to God to give me the answer, and the first thing to me he said was you asked me to bring your marriage back together and I gave you what you wanted. i had chill bumps all over me when hearing that.Then I asked but why did it go bad again and he said you didn't think about why it happened to start with, and that was true I just wanted my marriage back at any cost. But then I realized that my partner didn't not have Respect for me as a human being or did they Truly Love me even at the alter in front of God. So if they did have that for me then they couldn't have had it for God. God always has a person on this earth for each and everyone of us that will truly l love care and respect for whom we are. (they might be a beautiful lady or handsome man they my be thin or heavy but in their heart they are very and honest with themselves and others and they don't want to hurt others for they have the love of God in them much so. And in praying to God he also told me that I was not a DOOR MAT for someone to just wipe their feet all over me. You know I realized then that GOD gave them back but they were really NO GOOD for me and my God wanted the very best for me in my lifetime. It all made a lot of sense to me and I had to also realize that God would be there with me though the pain and as days went by it got easier but not overnight, but I just ended the marriage myself because I went to God for help and he answered my questions and I needed to listen or not ask him for help anymore. This was one of the hardest things for me to do but I had too for i knew it would not get better but for a short time because the other person really didn't want what I want any longer.
I don't know you at all but hope for your sake that this letter made so sense to you and realize the pain and yes it hurts so so bad but God will help you everyday and take this to heart Please!!!!!!!!! There is someone good for you out there in this world but end this bad relationship and stay single for awhile and you will get to the point that you will see bad things come out in people just watching them you will learn the right things trust me but don't settle for anything because you are lonely for there is things that you can learn to do on your own and have just as much fun.
Thank God that I broke my cycle that I was in and started Loving and respecting myself and demands that people would treat me nice or I was gone. i stayed single for 3 years and finally met a man younger then me but very mature for his age and he had no children and I did 2. He loves my children as they were his own and their are gown and he Loves everyone of my grandchildren We have had some disagree since being together but everyone does but no fighting no lying to one another and complete honest and respect for each other. We have been together this Christmas Eve 13 years, and we are not married because I feel if I was to get married it just might stop working out because people them think that they own you then.
I hope this helped you but I will not seat and take my time to write to someone that I don't know to give them false hope or to sugar cast anything because that is not be honest and trying to help someone. Yes to answer your question in beginning YES I will be Praying for you as long as it takes for you!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can only go by the name I have above but God will know whom I am praying ,but will ask God to do what is best for you!!!!!!!Take Care of yourself (Oh one more thing please don't listen to so many people take are trying to give you advise because you will get so confused from it all.You can write back and let me know how things go if you would my email is earnhardtnana3@yahoo.com I hope my letter makes sense for I didn't proof read it. Good Luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
