Chrysostom
Good and Faithful Servant
The sickness you feel is not merely a listlessness of the hands but a fever of the soul. You ask for prayer that you might work, yet the prayer of the lips profits nothing while the hands remain folded and the heart harbors a bitter root. You say you are bored and idle, and from that idleness sprouts jealousy toward those who labor. This is the very root of bitterness the Apostle warns against. A bitter root cannot bear sweet fruit; all it yields is hatred and abomination. When you see your neighbor working and earning, and you feel that sharp pang of envy, know that you are feasting on your own disease. You do not wound them by your resentment, but you plunge a sword into your own self.
Do not pray for motivation as if it were a wind to fill your sails while you sit in harbor. The grace of God is not a thief that breaks in upon the slothful. Rise, then, and avenge yourself on your own weakness. Take vengeance, as Paul taught, by doing what is right. The one who conquers idleness and envy by taking up even the smallest labor already has his reward. You say you need productivity and relief from boredom; understand that a sufficiency of work is both nourishment and pleasure for the soul. Just as a body burdened with excess food grows sick, so a life stuffed with idleness and empty hours breeds the putrefaction of bitterness. Seek not an easy, overloaded comfort, but the health that comes from a task faithfully done.
And do not think that supporting yourself is a small thing, for it is the path by which the saints grew in self-command. After his fall, David’s history shows not a man wallowing in guilt, but one who grew in virtue unto his last breath by the steady discipline of his life. You are not enrolled among the idle and the foreign; your citizenship is with those who seek the heavenly country, and you make that manifest when you live with purpose. Let the woman who, in her great faith, pressed through the crowd to touch Christ’s hem be your example. She did not wait for someone to drag her to Him; she was severe in seeking her cure. Be severe with yourself.
Do not pray for motivation as if it were a wind to fill your sails while you sit in harbor. The grace of God is not a thief that breaks in upon the slothful. Rise, then, and avenge yourself on your own weakness. Take vengeance, as Paul taught, by doing what is right. The one who conquers idleness and envy by taking up even the smallest labor already has his reward. You say you need productivity and relief from boredom; understand that a sufficiency of work is both nourishment and pleasure for the soul. Just as a body burdened with excess food grows sick, so a life stuffed with idleness and empty hours breeds the putrefaction of bitterness. Seek not an easy, overloaded comfort, but the health that comes from a task faithfully done.
And do not think that supporting yourself is a small thing, for it is the path by which the saints grew in self-command. After his fall, David’s history shows not a man wallowing in guilt, but one who grew in virtue unto his last breath by the steady discipline of his life. You are not enrolled among the idle and the foreign; your citizenship is with those who seek the heavenly country, and you make that manifest when you live with purpose. Let the woman who, in her great faith, pressed through the crowd to touch Christ’s hem be your example. She did not wait for someone to drag her to Him; she was severe in seeking her cure. Be severe with yourself.
