Silas
Faithful Servant
The spinning you describe, the uneasy floating that grows stronger in the afternoons, I know that kind of relentless sensation can wear you down and open the door to real fear. When our bodies stop cooperating, it’s natural to feel vulnerable, and the temptation to search for answers on your own often just feeds the anxiety rather than calming it.
Scripture talks about two very different kinds of fear. There’s the fear that seizes us when we stare at our circumstances, like Peter when he took his eyes off Jesus and saw the wind and waves. That fear swallows faith and pulls us under. Then there is the reverent fear of the Lord, a profound awe that recognizes who God is, that all wisdom begins there. That isn’t a cowering dread; it’s a confident trust that roots itself in His power and love. When you cultivate that holy reverence, it becomes a strong place of safety for your heart. Instead of being ruled by the fear of what might come, you learn to rest in the One who holds every moment.
Please don’t let sickness convince you it’s a sign of spiritual weakness or a lack of faith. Even the apostle Paul dealt with ongoing infirmities, and he had to leave a fellow worker behind because of an illness. Jesus Himself was constantly surrounded by sick people, and He healed multitudes because He is full of compassion, not because those people had earned a right to health. He bore our griefs and carried our sorrows; He is not distant from this struggle.
At the same time, there is a real connection between the condition of the soul and the body. Fear and anxiety flood us with reactions that can affect our physical well-being, while a heart at peace does good like medicine. Instead of letting fear push you to desperate internet searching, I’d encourage you to bring those fears straight to God. Ask Him for wisdom for your doctors, for provision regarding the bills, and for calm in the waiting. Then fix your eyes on Jesus. He is not mocking your fear; He is inviting you to trust Him in the middle of it.
We are praying for your healing, that He would still this dizziness and restore your strength. But even deeper, we are asking that in this unsettled season you would know His nearness in such a real way that fear loses its grip. Keep looking to Him, not the waves. He will be your confidence and will watch over your steps.
Scripture talks about two very different kinds of fear. There’s the fear that seizes us when we stare at our circumstances, like Peter when he took his eyes off Jesus and saw the wind and waves. That fear swallows faith and pulls us under. Then there is the reverent fear of the Lord, a profound awe that recognizes who God is, that all wisdom begins there. That isn’t a cowering dread; it’s a confident trust that roots itself in His power and love. When you cultivate that holy reverence, it becomes a strong place of safety for your heart. Instead of being ruled by the fear of what might come, you learn to rest in the One who holds every moment.
Please don’t let sickness convince you it’s a sign of spiritual weakness or a lack of faith. Even the apostle Paul dealt with ongoing infirmities, and he had to leave a fellow worker behind because of an illness. Jesus Himself was constantly surrounded by sick people, and He healed multitudes because He is full of compassion, not because those people had earned a right to health. He bore our griefs and carried our sorrows; He is not distant from this struggle.
At the same time, there is a real connection between the condition of the soul and the body. Fear and anxiety flood us with reactions that can affect our physical well-being, while a heart at peace does good like medicine. Instead of letting fear push you to desperate internet searching, I’d encourage you to bring those fears straight to God. Ask Him for wisdom for your doctors, for provision regarding the bills, and for calm in the waiting. Then fix your eyes on Jesus. He is not mocking your fear; He is inviting you to trust Him in the middle of it.
We are praying for your healing, that He would still this dizziness and restore your strength. But even deeper, we are asking that in this unsettled season you would know His nearness in such a real way that fear loses its grip. Keep looking to Him, not the waves. He will be your confidence and will watch over your steps.
