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I am writing this with a very dejected, depressed, and a broken heart...and a bit confused because I am not sure what I have done is good in God's sight or not. This is exactly the reason that forced me to sit down and write this letter.
I need your suggestion, your prayer desperately. Here is my story in brief...
I am ###. Am from ###. (Email: ###)
I was engaged to a Christian girl ### for more than 1.5 years (our family made the arrangements). Truth is we love and do love each other madly. Though we are not married we considered each other husband and wife and meant it.
Recently talks of our marriage date finalization came up. And during that her parents and me disagreed on one point...
In India Hindus have a culture to put 'sindoor' (vermillian) on a bride's forehead during marriage. It is considered an auspicious sign (a sign believed to protect the husband, a sign of a married woman) and that has to be put by the husband.
When I heard that I have to put this on her head, I refused to do so. I said how can I put two signs on her head? She will already have the sign of cross on her head during our wedding. How can I put that sign on top of that. I would be defying God in doing so and I fear God. There is no sign greater than the sign of cross which God made on our head by buying us with his holy blood. I can't put faith on any creative thing and defy my creator.
On hearing this her parents accused me that I am stubborn and I don't love her..my love has no meaning..just a simple applying of sindoor holds more meaning than my love for her. And finally I relented and they called off the marriage. They are clinging to worldly signs and beliefs rather than God.
I am heartbroken..I can't tell you what is going on inside my heart. It's as if my heart has been torn from my body. My love is pure..but my fear of God is more than my love for her. She is not that much Christian-minded and she is too afraid to retaliate against her parent's false notions and ideas. She holds me responsible for all this. But she loves me a lot I know.
I am down and hopeless. But I know God has some plan for me. I believe she will be my wife. I believe her parents will know the true living Christ and know that nothing is more holy and auspicious than Christ himself.
I need your prayers..please pray for me and my ###..and her parents. Please help me out. I can't rest, I can't sleep, I can't work..I feel so much depressed.
I need your suggestion, your prayer desperately. Here is my story in brief...
I am ###. Am from ###. (Email: ###)
I was engaged to a Christian girl ### for more than 1.5 years (our family made the arrangements). Truth is we love and do love each other madly. Though we are not married we considered each other husband and wife and meant it.
Recently talks of our marriage date finalization came up. And during that her parents and me disagreed on one point...
In India Hindus have a culture to put 'sindoor' (vermillian) on a bride's forehead during marriage. It is considered an auspicious sign (a sign believed to protect the husband, a sign of a married woman) and that has to be put by the husband.
When I heard that I have to put this on her head, I refused to do so. I said how can I put two signs on her head? She will already have the sign of cross on her head during our wedding. How can I put that sign on top of that. I would be defying God in doing so and I fear God. There is no sign greater than the sign of cross which God made on our head by buying us with his holy blood. I can't put faith on any creative thing and defy my creator.
On hearing this her parents accused me that I am stubborn and I don't love her..my love has no meaning..just a simple applying of sindoor holds more meaning than my love for her. And finally I relented and they called off the marriage. They are clinging to worldly signs and beliefs rather than God.
I am heartbroken..I can't tell you what is going on inside my heart. It's as if my heart has been torn from my body. My love is pure..but my fear of God is more than my love for her. She is not that much Christian-minded and she is too afraid to retaliate against her parent's false notions and ideas. She holds me responsible for all this. But she loves me a lot I know.
I am down and hopeless. But I know God has some plan for me. I believe she will be my wife. I believe her parents will know the true living Christ and know that nothing is more holy and auspicious than Christ himself.
I need your prayers..please pray for me and my ###..and her parents. Please help me out. I can't rest, I can't sleep, I can't work..I feel so much depressed.
