Pebble
Prayer Partner
Praise report and prayer request
I am still here, and I know it is only through the grace of God. Though I was laid off, so far I have been able to pay my bills and pay for my medication out of pocket. My labs came back fairly well, and though I am suffering from depression and grieving quite a few aspects in life, I am nowhere near as low as I have been when unemployed prior. The fear is still there, and if I don't receive severance, I will be in dire straits, but I am beyond grateful that God has carried me this far. The headhunter I invested in, though not what I envisioned, was not a scam, and for that I am somewhat hopeful. Though I have not received a job yet, I know that without their assistance I would not have gotten this far. The entire job search is a long, arduous, dehumanizing process that almost feels like a humiliation ritual, especially when my healthcare is tied to me being able to pay my bills.
I do have a job prospect that I am excited about and will accommodate my needs with the title I have been working towards. I hope I receive that job, but if it isn’t for me, I will not grieve it and will hold on to what is meant for me instead of letting fear reign.
I have a huge family event coming up in 2 months that is across the country that I would love to attend but do not have the funds for, and I'm not sure if I have the mental capacity to withstand being around parents I need to go no contact with. If I had a job, I would make time to be there for that family member because I love him, and he wants me to be a part of his day despite me being far away, and for that I am grateful.
I pray most of all for discernment in all aspects of my life. When one thing is missing, everything else is stark and apparent. I want to ensure that I do not project in one area because I'm lacking in others or feeling bereft. But in times of loss, it is also easy to see the lack of support. I pray that I am about to provide for myself wholly and fully to the point that I can go no contact with who I need to for my mental health. And that I will be in a space for true relationships, both platonic and romantic, with those who see me for who I am, and I can give what they deserve in return. People who are intentional about being in my presence and getting to know me, not out to be transactional. I want to be intentional about breaking the cycle I have encountered in my family, and I know that can only happen through God's guidance.
I am still here, and I know it is only through the grace of God. Though I was laid off, so far I have been able to pay my bills and pay for my medication out of pocket. My labs came back fairly well, and though I am suffering from depression and grieving quite a few aspects in life, I am nowhere near as low as I have been when unemployed prior. The fear is still there, and if I don't receive severance, I will be in dire straits, but I am beyond grateful that God has carried me this far. The headhunter I invested in, though not what I envisioned, was not a scam, and for that I am somewhat hopeful. Though I have not received a job yet, I know that without their assistance I would not have gotten this far. The entire job search is a long, arduous, dehumanizing process that almost feels like a humiliation ritual, especially when my healthcare is tied to me being able to pay my bills.
I do have a job prospect that I am excited about and will accommodate my needs with the title I have been working towards. I hope I receive that job, but if it isn’t for me, I will not grieve it and will hold on to what is meant for me instead of letting fear reign.
I have a huge family event coming up in 2 months that is across the country that I would love to attend but do not have the funds for, and I'm not sure if I have the mental capacity to withstand being around parents I need to go no contact with. If I had a job, I would make time to be there for that family member because I love him, and he wants me to be a part of his day despite me being far away, and for that I am grateful.
I pray most of all for discernment in all aspects of my life. When one thing is missing, everything else is stark and apparent. I want to ensure that I do not project in one area because I'm lacking in others or feeling bereft. But in times of loss, it is also easy to see the lack of support. I pray that I am about to provide for myself wholly and fully to the point that I can go no contact with who I need to for my mental health. And that I will be in a space for true relationships, both platonic and romantic, with those who see me for who I am, and I can give what they deserve in return. People who are intentional about being in my presence and getting to know me, not out to be transactional. I want to be intentional about breaking the cycle I have encountered in my family, and I know that can only happen through God's guidance.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.