Silas
Beloved of All
How good it is to hear of the Lord’s kindness in stopping your son’s coughing and wheezing. That tangible mercy reminds us that He really does hear and answer, and it builds our confidence for the needs still pressing in. You say you are dismayed but you know God is good and faithful, and that confession itself is a seed of steadfast trust. When outward circumstances look unsteady, the record God has given remains sure: He has given us eternal life, and that life is in His Son. Everything He promises, everything He provides, flows to us in and through Jesus. So even with failing cars, mounting appointments, and headaches that make clear thought an agony, you already possess the one thing that can never be taken away. You have the Son, and therefore you have life.
That does not make the heartbreak over your youngest son less real. It is hard to trust the Lord with him when you cannot see a way forward. Yet I would gently remind you that the Father knows exactly what it is to give a beloved Son. He did not spare His only begotten Son but delivered Him up for us all. So your pain is not lost on Him, and you are not trusting a distant, unmoved deity. The Spirit He sent into your heart cries “Abba, Father,” and He receives you as a true child, an adopted son or daughter, loved with the same love He has for Christ. Because you belong to Him, He will correct, lead, and sustain you even when the way is dark. That very ache you feel is a sign that His fatherly hand is at work, not that He has abandoned you.
Those headaches returning with vengeance, the uncertainty about shelter and repair costs, these test the fiber of your trust. When things were sweet and the healing came, it was easy to sing His praise. Now you are learning to trust Him when your mind is clouded and you can barely think straight. Trust in those places actually brings greater praise to His grace, because it declares that He is good even when the visible proof wavers. Remember Abraham: God told him to take his son, his only son whom he loved, and offer him. Abraham did not withhold. And in that, we see a foreshadowing of the Father’s own sacrifice. Your love for your son is a picture, however faint, of that great love. You can carry him to the Lord again and again, not because you can force an outcome, but because you entrust him to the very God who understands parent-love fully. If you have come to the place where you are almost ashamed to ask for anything but God’s own hand, then you are in a good place. He is a mighty power to those who lean on Him.
Keep looking to Jesus. You already know that whoever has the Son has life, and that includes your daughter who will soon bring her third child into the world. That is a joy worth celebrating. For your youngest, keep asking, keep believing that God’s witness is true, and that His Spirit can call him out of darkness. In the meantime, you are not holding on by your own strength. The same Son who redeemed you from under the law and made you an heir is interceding for you. Rest in that. Your need for provision, for healing in your own body, for shelter for your son, all these are not too hard for Him. Let your trust, tested and strained as it is, become an offering that glorifies His grace. I will pray with you for the repairs, the appointments, the relief from pain, and especially for your son to find shelter and to come into the life that is only in Christ.
That does not make the heartbreak over your youngest son less real. It is hard to trust the Lord with him when you cannot see a way forward. Yet I would gently remind you that the Father knows exactly what it is to give a beloved Son. He did not spare His only begotten Son but delivered Him up for us all. So your pain is not lost on Him, and you are not trusting a distant, unmoved deity. The Spirit He sent into your heart cries “Abba, Father,” and He receives you as a true child, an adopted son or daughter, loved with the same love He has for Christ. Because you belong to Him, He will correct, lead, and sustain you even when the way is dark. That very ache you feel is a sign that His fatherly hand is at work, not that He has abandoned you.
Those headaches returning with vengeance, the uncertainty about shelter and repair costs, these test the fiber of your trust. When things were sweet and the healing came, it was easy to sing His praise. Now you are learning to trust Him when your mind is clouded and you can barely think straight. Trust in those places actually brings greater praise to His grace, because it declares that He is good even when the visible proof wavers. Remember Abraham: God told him to take his son, his only son whom he loved, and offer him. Abraham did not withhold. And in that, we see a foreshadowing of the Father’s own sacrifice. Your love for your son is a picture, however faint, of that great love. You can carry him to the Lord again and again, not because you can force an outcome, but because you entrust him to the very God who understands parent-love fully. If you have come to the place where you are almost ashamed to ask for anything but God’s own hand, then you are in a good place. He is a mighty power to those who lean on Him.
Keep looking to Jesus. You already know that whoever has the Son has life, and that includes your daughter who will soon bring her third child into the world. That is a joy worth celebrating. For your youngest, keep asking, keep believing that God’s witness is true, and that His Spirit can call him out of darkness. In the meantime, you are not holding on by your own strength. The same Son who redeemed you from under the law and made you an heir is interceding for you. Rest in that. Your need for provision, for healing in your own body, for shelter for your son, all these are not too hard for Him. Let your trust, tested and strained as it is, become an offering that glorifies His grace. I will pray with you for the repairs, the appointments, the relief from pain, and especially for your son to find shelter and to come into the life that is only in Christ.
