We hear the deep pain and confusion in your words, and our hearts ache with you. The trauma you’ve endured—being violated, robbed of peace, and left feeling powerless—is not something to be minimized or spiritualized away with demands or decrees. The Bible does not teach that we can simply "speak things into existence" as if we are gods ourselves. That is a dangerous deception. Instead, we are called to humbly submit to the Lord, who alone has the power to heal, restore, and bring justice in His perfect timing.
First, we must address the foundation of your plea. You mentioned "KARMA" and the "Universe," but these are not biblical concepts. There is no power in karma—only in the name of Jesus Christ, who is the Way, the Truth, and the Life (John 14:6). It is only through Him that we have access to the Father, and it is only by His blood that we are saved (Ephesians 2:8-9). If you have not already, we urge you to surrender your life to Jesus, repent of any sin, and trust in His finished work on the cross for your salvation. Without Him, there is no true healing or justice.
The pain of sexual assault is profound, and the enemy would love to keep you in bondage to fear, bitterness, and isolation. But Scripture tells us that God is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18). He sees your tears, and He collects them in a bottle (Psalm 56:8). You are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. The Lord is your refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1).
We must also rebuke the spirit of confusion and fear that has taken root in your words. The nightmares, the sense of being hunted, the obsession with uncovering hidden enemies—these are not from God. The Bible says, "God is not a God of confusion, but of peace" (1 Corinthians 14:33). We do not wage war against flesh and blood, but against spiritual forces of evil (Ephesians 6:12). Your battle is not against people who may or may not be "in love" with others—your battle is against the enemy who seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). We must take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ (2 Corinthians 10:5) and resist the devil, who will flee from us when we submit to God (James 4:7).
You mentioned that you have never dated and have kept yourself pure, even in past interactions. This is commendable, and we praise God for your obedience in this area. Sexual purity is a precious gift, and the Lord honors those who honor Him (1 Samuel 2:30). But we must also address the bitterness and unforgiveness that may be lingering in your heart. The Bible is clear: "If you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses" (Matthew 6:14-15). This does not mean what was done to you was justified—it was evil, and the Lord will judge those who perpetrated such wickedness. But harboring hatred or a desire for vengeance will only poison your soul. Instead, we must pray for our enemies and bless those who curse us (Matthew 5:44), trusting God to repay (Romans 12:19).
You also expressed concern for your family, future children, and even the world. This is understandable, but we must not allow fear to dictate our prayers. The Lord has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7). Instead of demanding justice or trying to expose hidden enemies, we must pray for God’s protection, His will to be done, and His peace to guard our hearts and minds in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:6-7). We do not need to "put up shields" in our own strength—God is our shield, and His faithfulness is our armor (Psalm 91:4). The blood of Jesus has already defeated the enemy, and no weapon formed against us shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17).
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this precious sister who has endured such deep pain and violation. Lord, You see her tears, You know her fears, and You collect every one of her sorrows. We ask that You would draw near to her, wrap Your arms around her, and remind her that she is not alone. Heal her mind, body, and spirit from the trauma she has suffered. Restore her joy, her peace, and her sense of safety in You.
Father, we rebuke the spirit of fear, confusion, and bitterness that has taken root in her life. We declare that she is covered by the blood of Jesus, and no weapon formed against her shall prosper. We ask that You would break every chain of unforgiveness, resentment, and desire for vengeance. Fill her heart with Your love, Your grace, and Your mercy. Help her to forgive those who have wronged her, not because they deserve it, but because You have forgiven her.
Lord, we pray for her family and her future. Protect them from all harm and evil. Guard their minds and hearts, and let Your peace reign in their home. We ask that You would surround them with godly influences, wise counsel, and a strong community of believers who can support and encourage them.
Father, we also pray for justice. You are a God who sees and knows all things, and we trust that You will repay every evil deed. But we ask that You would do so in Your timing and in Your way, that Your name would be glorified and Your justice would prevail.
Finally, Lord, we ask that You would help her to fix her eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of her faith. May she find her strength in You, her hope in Your promises, and her peace in Your presence. We declare that she is more than a conqueror through Christ who loves her (Romans 8:37), and that nothing can separate her from Your love (Romans 8:38-39).
In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
Sister, we encourage you to seek out a trusted pastor, biblical counselor, or Christian therapist who can walk with you through this healing journey. You do not have to carry this burden alone. The Lord has placed people in your life who can support you, pray with you, and remind you of His truth when the lies of the enemy creep in.
We also urge you to spend time in God’s Word daily. Meditate on Scriptures that speak of His love, His protection, and His promises. Here are a few to start with:
- "The Lord is my light and my salvation—whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life—of whom shall I be afraid?" (Psalm 27:1)
- "Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you." (1 Peter 5:7)
- "He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds." (Psalm 147:3)
- "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:6-7)
Lastly, we want to gently correct the language of "demanding" or "decreeing" things into existence. That is not how prayer works. Prayer is not about us exerting our will over God’s—it is about aligning our hearts with His will and trusting Him to work all things together for our good (Romans 8:28). We do not command God; we surrender to Him. We do not manipulate circumstances; we trust in His sovereignty.
You are deeply loved, and your pain matters to the Lord. He is not distant or indifferent to your suffering. He is close to the brokenhearted, and He is working even now to bring beauty from ashes (Isaiah 61:3). Keep pressing into Him, and do not lose heart. His grace is sufficient for you, and His power is made perfect in your weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9).