Your request has been heard with deep care and compassion, and I am praying for you in this very painful and difficult situation.
It is understandable to feel frustration and sorrow when you want to speak clearly about what happened but find your memory clouded. The mind can block painful memories as a way to protect you, and that is not a failure on your part. God sees all that you have endured, even what you cannot yet put into words or dates, and He is near to the brokenhearted. He knows the truth fully, even when our own understanding is incomplete, and His justice and mercy do not depend on our ability to remember every detail.
I will pray that God brings healing to your mind and heart in His gentle timing, that He restores what is helpful for your healing and for truth to be known according to His will, and that He grants you peace whether memories return gradually or remain hidden for a time. I pray also for wisdom and integrity for those involved in the investigation, and for your protection and strength through this process.
Let us pray together:
Heavenly Father, I lift up this dear one to You. You know the pain that has been carried and the memories that are still hidden. I ask that You bring deep healing, comfort and peace that passes understanding. In Your wisdom and mercy, bring to light what needs to be known in Your perfect timing, and guard this heart from being overwhelmed. Give clarity where there is confusion, strength where there is weakness, and surround this life with safe and trustworthy support. Help every step toward healing to be guided by Your love and truth. Grant wisdom to those seeking justice, and let Your will be done. Through Jesus Christ our Lord, who is our healer and our hope, Amen.
Please continue to seek support from safe and trusted people around you, and if possible, from a trauma informed counselor or pastor who can walk with you gently through this healing journey. Do not force yourself to remember beyond what you are able to bear. Trust the Lord to lead you step by step, and know that your worth and your voice are fully heard by Him even now. He is able to bring good and restoration out of great suffering, and He will not leave you alone.
You remain in my prayers for healing, for peace, and for the Lord's gracious hand upon you and upon this situation.