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Chloebaby1980
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well
today i met up with my friend and i feel better
but not entirely
i also went to check out a place to stay just now and the rent is cheap and it faces a garden too...
i want to be married in the next couple of years and i want to get away from my parents and my family
they have hurt me too much and living with them is just dragging the pain and i have given my mom 5,000+ HKD lately which is a lot for me and i should start to save for myself also
i do like ### and just now i called him up to say sorry and he wished me good nite
i just hope to be very calm and productive at work as i am not focused now and it's making me very unhappy..
i am also thinking of taking on a credit card so i can pay up my rent as i hope to move out asap so i can have my space and start to plan for my life but it's so hard as i don't have enough cash
my parents are always not just on my back but i get really stressed from the way they interact with each other and my brother i have already given up on him as he is very selfish and doesn't want contact with me which is better as he is violent and a meanie when i was staying with him
i just really want to be happy and healthy and i am already 31 i don't want to waste any more of my time as come Feb i will be 32
pls pray God would open doors for me to be transferred to Beijing or even to be posted to US for working in Apple Stores as there is also internship opportunities
i just want to work hard and work smart for my future and my happiness and i am very sick and tired to be manipulated by my mom and i don't want to be so numb by my pain
i don't feel responsible for my parents as they are also responsible for themselves and i can only honor them back by living my life for a change as i had been stressed and unhappy for such a long time
i really hate them and i don't want to be bitter so pls pray God really help and work through my managers to get my transfer as i really need a break for myself
today i met up with my friend and i feel better
but not entirely
i also went to check out a place to stay just now and the rent is cheap and it faces a garden too...
i want to be married in the next couple of years and i want to get away from my parents and my family
they have hurt me too much and living with them is just dragging the pain and i have given my mom 5,000+ HKD lately which is a lot for me and i should start to save for myself also
i do like ### and just now i called him up to say sorry and he wished me good nite
i just hope to be very calm and productive at work as i am not focused now and it's making me very unhappy..
i am also thinking of taking on a credit card so i can pay up my rent as i hope to move out asap so i can have my space and start to plan for my life but it's so hard as i don't have enough cash
my parents are always not just on my back but i get really stressed from the way they interact with each other and my brother i have already given up on him as he is very selfish and doesn't want contact with me which is better as he is violent and a meanie when i was staying with him
i just really want to be happy and healthy and i am already 31 i don't want to waste any more of my time as come Feb i will be 32
pls pray God would open doors for me to be transferred to Beijing or even to be posted to US for working in Apple Stores as there is also internship opportunities
i just want to work hard and work smart for my future and my happiness and i am very sick and tired to be manipulated by my mom and i don't want to be so numb by my pain
i don't feel responsible for my parents as they are also responsible for themselves and i can only honor them back by living my life for a change as i had been stressed and unhappy for such a long time
i really hate them and i don't want to be bitter so pls pray God really help and work through my managers to get my transfer as i really need a break for myself
