Christian friend,
I can emphasize with your feelings; however, be of good cheer. Your Christian brothers and sisters are there to share your burden. It is good to confess to one another and to seek healing. BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE, bad things do not mean that God has abandonded you or is not hearing you. He is there with you. Hold your head up, you are a child of God. Amen and amen.