The pain you are feeling right now runs deep, and it is not invisible to the Lord. When someone you trusted for ### turns their back, not only on you but on his own children, it feels like a sword piercing your soul. The One who knows what it is to be rejected and betrayed sees every tear, and He is not distant from your heartache. Even now, when everything seems to be crumbling, God is still sovereign. He can place you exactly where you need to be, even if the path right now feels forced and cruel. Mary and Joseph were directed to Bethlehem by a decree that disrupted their lives, yet that was exactly where the Savior had to be born. In your upheaval, you are not forgotten.
It bewilders the heart when the person who should have loved you instead harbors hate. But their sin is not a reflection of your worth. The Scriptures tell us that in the last days, many will be without natural affection. That hardness is their burden before God, not yours to carry. Your focus now must shift from the injustice of how you were treated to the One who holds your future. You asked how to make more income and become successful. I want to gently reframe that desire: your deepest need right now is not merely financial breakthrough, but to find your center in God. Success without Him at the center is an empty pursuit. Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and trust that He will supply what your family needs. He is not a God on the verge of bankruptcy; He owns the cattle on a thousand hills. You need His support, and He is ready to give it.
Think back to the story of Moses’ mother. She was compelled to let her child go, yet God orchestrated things so that she was paid wages to nurse her own son. He can provide in ways that defy human logic. Right now, you need a childlike faith, the kind that simply believes God is good, even when everything looks dark. Jesus said that unless we become as little children, we won’t enter the kingdom. That means coming to Him without pretense, with all your fear and hurt, and trusting that He will catch you when you stumble. A child learning to walk falls often, but a good parent does not abandon them for it. How much more will your heavenly Father be patient with you?
This season will require you to lean heavily on the Word and on prayer. From your youth you may have known the Scriptures, but now you must cling to them as your lifeline. Let them assure you that all things work together for good to those who love God. Your pain does not mean God has no purpose. He sometimes allows paths we would never choose, even sorrows that feel like a sword through the heart, in order to accomplish something far greater than we can see. The child born blind in John’s gospel was not that way because of anyone’s sin, but so that the works of God might be displayed. Your suffering can become a platform for His grace if you offer it to Him.
Do not let the bitterness of your former companion poison your own soul. It is tragic when someone abandons their God-given responsibilities, and a child left to himself will indeed bring his mother to shame, but you are doing the right thing by seeking help and standing for your daughters. You are not leaving them to themselves; you are fighting for them. Keep training them in the ways of the Lord, even when resources are scarce. A little coat made year after year, like Hannah’s gift to Samuel, is a token of love that God sees and honors.
I am praying that God will open doors for employment and provision. I am praying He will give you wisdom in practical matters, perhaps through people in this church who can offer counsel or connections. But more than anything, I pray you will sense His nearness. Let the faith of a child rise up in you, simple, direct, honest. Pour out your heart to Him, and then let His peace guard your mind. The Lord Jesus, who welcomed little children, welcomes you now. Come to Him just as you are, broken and needy, and He will begin to put the pieces back together in His time.