Gina
Servant of All
Please keep praying for me; I am having a real crisis of faith. Why must the Lord be so silent? I am yearning for peace and some measure of joy and all my life is is keeping one step ahead of utility terminations and creditors and wanting to die. I get so confused, I wake up in the morning every day BELIEVING that today will be the day I feel the Lord , REALLY feel Him in my life and by noon I am defeated. I vacilate between believing in His Promises and believing they are for everyone else but not for me. My throid has stopped functioning and I am feeling poorly, my nutrition is horrible due to lack of funds and there are more things WRONG than right. Bad brakes on the car, the estimate is 500 for repair; it might as well be 5 million, my stove is leaking carbon monoxide so I can't use it, again, no money for repair. I am so,so, so weary and I feel foolish right now, thinking that somehow He hears me. I just feel abandoned and so, so alone, even though I know better. Please pray