That's because we take our eyes off what is important...life passes by right in front of us, and with stuff we have no control over...God is leading and holding us...just rest in Him and know that He is leading us to the purpose that He wants and needs us to be in to bring Him glory...we are tired, weak and may even feel lost...but through it all the storms the night, He is always leading us...Your children are the blessing Satan's job in these last days is to destroy, families, and he is doing his job...remember that he is God's creation and God allows situations so we can bring Him the glory with our minds, hearts, souls and bodies...refocus and let Him mold you into the soldier that you are, doing the "job" He has placed before you...the world is in caos, we are all loosing "things"...but NEVER Him....stay focused and become the ambassador of His will...God bless you and may the Lord speak to you clearly into all righteousness and Truth in Jesus name...Lord use her for the glory of Your kingdom right here on earth...in Jesus name...and don't be so hard on yourself...it's all part of His purpose and plan so we can see us for who we are...just get "rid" of your personality and your good...which is the hardest thing to do...He lingers near in our lives and speaks often, we just have to learn how to listen....He is holding you that's why your here on this site...HE KNOWS.....be blessed and continue to be a blessing...enjoy your husband and children bind together instead of apart....make the bond strong where nothing can enter into the circle of life for you and your family...let HIM lead...everything is going to happen anyway...for it is written....do it His way and enjoy...God bless Ann