Do not give up. GO to Christ with an open and honest heart tell God how you feel confess everything. Seek, knock and ask non stop and you will feel his Love and the power of his Love.
I have gone through something very similar to yours, i thought i could never feel his Love or trust him like i once did but after seeking, knocking, and asking non stop i have seen the power in his Love. I have seen how righteous our God is in all that he does..
Show God how much you want to be filled in his Love his presence his peace and joy, not to enjoy only but Live and become a light in the world. & let the life of Christ pour out of us. Jesus Loves you just prove to him how much you want to trust him and Love him, he is listening to you. Do not give up... Jesus Loves You!
GLory to God in Jesus name amen!