Bless you. I have prayed for you, but remember that the Bible says: "Seek first the Kingdom of God". If we are actively seeking God's will and His Kingdom, He will guide us in every step. What I'm trying to say is: seek God's kingdom, not a spouse. If it is God's will for you to get married, he will send you someone. However, if you seek to get married over all other things you may make a mistake, and a difficult marriage is one of the hardest, heaviest burdens anyone can bear. When we seek God's will first He gives us happiness, whether we are married or single.