Sometimes it is hard for me to describe the internal problems I feel. Satan probably attacks me because I have some weak spots, of hurt in me.
I have problems with jealousy and envy. There is good reason for this. My whole life I've been on the bottom. I see people doing things that just doesn't seem fair.
Speaking from a Christian point of view, I get jealous and envious of other Christians. There are several ways that I feel this way:
1) Christians who are positive and joyful. It is a real struggle for me to be a janitor working a 2nd shift job, cleaning up the stuff I got to clean up, and living a very lonely life all the time, to find that positive and joyfulness. I am told that I should be joyful, and be joyful in all situations. It feels like I can't do it.
2) Christians that are being used by God to do things that help others. I try to be as helpful as I can, but I'm very very limited in what I can do. I don't even know if the little I have done has done any good or not. Maybe it would be best if I just always kept my mouth shut. That is literally how I feel.
I believe that Jesus can fix a person's heart. It is through His power that we grow and get better. I just wish He would fix my heart in these places. If it isn't a heart problem then I wish He would fix my emotions because feeling like this hurts.
I have problems with jealousy and envy. There is good reason for this. My whole life I've been on the bottom. I see people doing things that just doesn't seem fair.
Speaking from a Christian point of view, I get jealous and envious of other Christians. There are several ways that I feel this way:
1) Christians who are positive and joyful. It is a real struggle for me to be a janitor working a 2nd shift job, cleaning up the stuff I got to clean up, and living a very lonely life all the time, to find that positive and joyfulness. I am told that I should be joyful, and be joyful in all situations. It feels like I can't do it.
2) Christians that are being used by God to do things that help others. I try to be as helpful as I can, but I'm very very limited in what I can do. I don't even know if the little I have done has done any good or not. Maybe it would be best if I just always kept my mouth shut. That is literally how I feel.
I believe that Jesus can fix a person's heart. It is through His power that we grow and get better. I just wish He would fix my heart in these places. If it isn't a heart problem then I wish He would fix my emotions because feeling like this hurts.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.