Suicide is a grave sin. However, our God is a good God. Only He can judge the state of a person's mind, heart and soul. Years ago I was homeless and had numerous problems, bad ones. It was my last night to be able to stay in a hotel and then I would have been back to the streets. I just could not take it. I wanted to die like a lady, die in a nice clean bed. I downed nearly two boxes of Unisom sleeping pills., My old boyfriend found me, and I was taken to the hospital by ambulance. It was a miracle -- I never totally lost consciousness, and they did not even have to pump my stomach. Obviously, it was not God's will that I should die that day. My firm belief? If I had succeeded in killing myself back then, I definitely would not have gone to hell. However, I think if I committed suicide right now, I would go to hell. Don't ask me why. I just know. So remember- Our God is a just and merciful God. I do not believe that everyone who commits suicide goes to hell. I really don't. I am praying for you in the name of Jesus of Nazareth. Peace.