lucie
Servant
please pray that I can be healed from my depression and that I can be able to hide it and not talk about it in order that people don t reject me , and that I can be more positive, i know that negative words have a power and I use them too much and negative thoughts and feelings too, I don t know how to feel better I see an analyst and all but since my childhood i carry too much burden on my shoulders and the last months it was getting worse because I was rejected by my ex because of my depression, and since then i m more depressed and i m not able to stop loving him and be interested in other men
please help me my life is worthless as it is now and i want to live a happy life, i think i deserve it , I want to be happy, loved and spread happines and love all around me but something from my past is not allowing me to do that , and people make me feel guilty for my depression they say i don t make enough efforts , that i should avoid saying that i m depressed... but sometimes i feel so bad, especially when noone wants to help me.. that all I can do is cry and say I m too depressed and need help, i can t pretend all the time being happy when I m so bad that I want my life to end..
I wish I could let go at last of my inner suffering but I don t even remember what caused it so it s difficult
please help me my life is worthless as it is now and i want to live a happy life, i think i deserve it , I want to be happy, loved and spread happines and love all around me but something from my past is not allowing me to do that , and people make me feel guilty for my depression they say i don t make enough efforts , that i should avoid saying that i m depressed... but sometimes i feel so bad, especially when noone wants to help me.. that all I can do is cry and say I m too depressed and need help, i can t pretend all the time being happy when I m so bad that I want my life to end..
I wish I could let go at last of my inner suffering but I don t even remember what caused it so it s difficult