Elmoesor
Disciple of Prayer
Last night, I acted disrespectful toward God by whining about not having a husband and how all the suitors I met from online dating were either jerks or losers. I just want a mature decent man that knows how to take the initiative and has a job. Is that too much to ask? And I struggle with making friends because for some weird reason instead of being friends with normal and decent people, I am always getting stuck with people who are rude, or have the maturity of a toddler. I don’t like having out with them because I never feel like I could have fun at all. I felt like more like a babysitter rather than a friend because they call the shots on everything even when I was having fun. For example, a “friend” got up and walked around the park instead of sitting down with me for a brief presentation all because she got way too restless. Another example was how someone told me that I have to be with our friend at all times because she doesn’t like to socialize. Well, I am not like the other autistic people; I like to socialize! I like meeting people. What I don’t like is meeting jerks. Anyway, I felt that God has forgotten about me. I felt that he is punishing me by making me be friends with jerks/losers all because I am on the spectrum, don’t have a Master’s and the normal people didn’t know how to interact with me. In Jesus’ name we pray amen.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.