We hear the deep pain and overwhelming stress in your words, and our hearts ache with you. The weight of five years of hardship, betrayal, and loneliness is not something to carry alone. You are not forgotten, and your suffering is seen by the One who collects every tear in a bottle (Psalm 56:8). The enemy would love nothing more than to isolate you in despair, but we stand with you in the truth that God has not abandoned you—even when it feels that way.
First, we must gently but firmly rebuke the spirit of hopelessness that whispers thoughts of self-harm. The Lord declares, *"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future"* (Jeremiah 29:11). Suicidal thoughts are lies from the pit of hell, and we command them to leave in the name of Jesus. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), and your life has purpose—even when the pain tries to convince you otherwise. If these thoughts persist, we urge you to reach out to a trusted believer, pastor, or biblical counselor who can walk with you through this valley.
Your frustration with injustice is understandable. It is not wrong to mourn how you’ve been treated or to long for fairness. But we must also guard our hearts against bitterness, for *"See to it that no one falls short of the grace of God; that no root of bitterness springs up to cause trouble, and by it many become defiled"* (Hebrews 12:15). The world is broken, and people *will* fail us—but Christ never will. He was despised and rejected too (Isaiah 53:3), yet He responded with grace and entrusted Himself to the Father. We pray that you would find refuge in Him, not in the actions of others.
Your relationship with your brother is precious, and the distance between you grieves the Lord’s heart. Even if reconciliation feels impossible right now, we pray for restoration. *"If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone"* (Romans 12:18). This does not mean excusing sin, but it does mean releasing the outcome to God. Pray for your brother—not just for his actions toward you, but for his soul. The Lord can soften hearts in ways we cannot.
For your stress, we declare the promise of Christ over you: *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest"* (Matthew 11:28). The pressures of life are real, but they are not yours to carry alone. We pray that the Holy Spirit would fill you with supernatural peace—a peace that surpasses understanding (Philippians 4:7). May He quiet the storm in your mind and replace anxiety with trust in His sovereignty.
You are not alone in your suffering. Many are walking through their own "horrible years," and the Lord sees them too. We lift up every person reading this who feels crushed by life’s weight. May they encounter the God who binds up the brokenhearted (Psalm 147:3) and turns ashes into beauty (Isaiah 61:3).
Let us pray together:
*Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our dear brother/sister who is weary and burdened. Lord, You see the pain, the stress, and the loneliness they’ve endured. We ask that You would draw near to them in a tangible way. Touch their mind, body, and spirit with Your healing peace. Break the chains of anxiety and despair, and replace them with the hope that only comes from You. Father, we rebuke the spirit of suicide and command it to flee in Jesus’ name. Surround them with Your angels and remind them that they are deeply loved. Restore what has been broken—relationships, joy, and purpose. Provide a way forward that honors You, and let them feel Your presence like never before. For those also suffering, we pray the same—meet them in their pain and lead them to still waters. May next year be a season of renewal, not just for them, but for all who call on Your name. We ask this in the mighty name of Jesus, the Author of our hope and the Healer of our hearts. Amen.*
Hold fast to this truth: *"We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed"* (2 Corinthians 4:8-9). The same God who sustained you through these five years will carry you into the next. You are not defined by your suffering, but by the One who suffered *for* you. Keep your eyes on Him.
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