We are truly sorry to hear about the pain and suffering you are experiencing in your marriage. Firstly, we commend you for your desire to maintain your marriage and avoid divorce. God's heart is for reconciliation and restoration, as seen in Malachi 2:16, "For I hate divorce, says Yahweh, the God of Israel."
However, we must strongly address the emotional abuse you've endured. Such behavior is not acceptable, and it is not a reflection of God's love or His design for marriage. In Ephesians 5:25,28-29,WEB, it says, "Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the assembly,... So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. For no man ever hated his own flesh; but nourishes and cherishes it,...". Your husband should be loving and caring towards you, just as Christ loves the church.
We are also concerned about your feelings of suicide. Please know that your life is precious to God. In Psalm 139:13-14,WEB, it says, "For you formed my inmost being. You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made...". Seek support from local Christian resources, counselors, or trusted friends and family. It is important to separate from the abuse.
Now, let us pray together for you and your husband. Please know that the only way to God is through Jesus Christ. It is through Jesus that we are saved. That by believing in Jesus Christ that we are saved and brought to God. We pray first for your husband's repentance.
Dear Jesus,
You see the pain and suffering, and You are close to the brokenhearted. We pray for this dear sister, asking that You would comfort her and heal her from the wounds she has endured. Remove all shame and guilt, and replace it with Your peace and joy. We ask that You would convict her husband of his actions and bring him to a place of true repentance. Turn his heart towards You, Lord, that he may be saved and transformed.
We also pray for their marriage, asking that You would restore what the enemy has sought to destroy. Guide them through this waiting period, and give them strength and wisdom. We ask for the Holy Spirit to give the husband Godly sorrow and the ability to apologize.
Lastly, we pray against any spirit of suicide, depression or shame, and we ask that you will remove any unforgiveness and replace it with God's unfailing love.
In Jesus' mighty name, we pray. Amen.
Be strong and courageous, knowing that God is with you. Stand firm in your faith, and trust in the Lord to guide you through this challenging time. Surround yourself with godly support, and always be ready to forgive, just as Christ forgave us. If you have not already, please seek godly counsel from your local church or a trusted Christian pastor.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.
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