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PRAYER WARRIORS!!!! PLEASE STAND IN AGREMENT WITH ME THAT THE lORD gOD ,(BECUASE HE CAN DO ALL THINGS, READS THIS LETTER TO CARY'S HEART!! Dear Cary, Even tho I can not send this to you, because of my Promise I made to you and God that I would not call, email, write you a letter or take your stuff back. I figured if I could just write down what I had to say I would feel somewhat better. God tells us in his scriptures to confess our sins and faults to one another. I have never been truly honest with you. I am ashamed for it, but I also know that I lived in the flesh and did not live in a Godly way all the time. The enemy wanted to bound my heart and my thoughts and mind to destroy trust and Faith. The enemy is jealous when people have a Godly love inside their heart and shares it. He is against this and tries to strike against us, well I have now been convicted by this from Jesus and I have confessed my sins to him and I am forgiven, but I must ask you forgiveness to walk in righteousness and Holy. I must appear before God as a righteous Woman whom loves and adores God above all. I was emotionally, physically, and sexually attracted to you by the flesh which lived in sin. I held you up higher than God and God did not approve of that. What I should be is attracted to you by the Light of Jesus within you. God allows us to make our own choices, but he hopes we choose his path and his way. "What good is a light bulb, without electricity?" We are the light bulbs and God's word supplies the light. If we do not live in his word , how can the light shine in us? All the things I done for you ,were for you, but some were not done with the instructions of God. I wanted you to love me for what I was doing and not excepting you should love me for me. I condemned myself, you did not. I seen before me a man that I wanted to honor, trust, care for, love, find peace, and happiness with. I was in hopes of saving you, but I realized I can not save you, Jesus has to. His blood was shed to save us, not mine! All I can do is pray for you and ask Jesus to protect you and keep you safe. When you feel God and the Church failed you in the past and in your marriage remember his words. Scriptures says God never forsakes us nor does he leave us. Chapter 14 2 Chronicles "I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee!" We have only two choices in life 1) Let go and trust God in everything2) Do it our way and FAIL I have known for a longtime in my heart, you have not let go of your divorce, you are hurt, resentful, you suffer with fear and rejected. When you allow the enemy to keep you in bondage of all these things. You steps will not go forward, but backward where there is the path of darkness. There in the darkness, is loneliness, fear, unworthiness. Don't stay there, you may think you are so comfortable being there, but how can someone be comfortable in the dark? Darkness is for only when we sleep, its for peace and rest. In the darkness of destruction we can not see, think, we can feel secure, we are afraid, we just live in fear, we can not walk where we can not see. Jesus tells us to walk in the light. The Bible tells us to "put on the armor of light" (Romans 13:14a). It also says, "but if we walk in the Light as He Himself is in the Light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all sin" (1 John 1:7). If you are walking in the Light, you have also put on the armor of light. Cary my love for you is not of any infactuation, obsession, or un natural desires to have you in my life. I believe from the first time i met you on October 5, 2006. you were placed in front of me by God for a very specific reason. The reason is I don't know, but God will reveal his plan in his time. God's love is unconditional and there is no PERFECT love in the flesh only Jesus is PERFECT in everyway. I do not feel I have done anything to fail our communication, nor our friendship. If i have said things that are factual and said them in a kind manner and you choose to turn away and not try to communicate back and walk away, then that is how you react to a situation. To learn communication , you have to be a part of it. That is how we grow, how we learn and how we gain understanding from ourselves and each other. We were not placed to agree upon every little thing in life, BUT we are placed here to show respect and agree how the matter is handled, agreed by each. It's called "Meeting in the middle". It's easy to walk away from people and sufferings, but it is FATAL to walk away from Jesus. Thru him we are gave life and death. We are handed a place in heaven if we follow him, or a kick into Hell if we allow Satan to control our soul. It's our choice. The people of my past that I never see in other states, cities, countries knew me in the flesh. They knew my voice of destruction, they knew me as a sinner, a deciever and a unholy woman. BUT by the grace of God and the Blood of Jesus, I have be cleansed by his blood and made holy to walk in the light of Jesus and become a Woman of God, so people who know me in my presence and in my future can see me like a child of Christ. I can't change my past, but only repent of it, God is changing my present and my future!
