BreeBree
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray for me to be reunited with my boyfriend. He is a former army medic dealing with the effects of war after being blown up. Along with a rigorous school schedule for med school, I didn't make things easy. I had a past of cheating men as we are in different states at the moment so my insecurities got the best of me I suppose. I had a wake up call and realized I was wrong and needed to be more understanding because he's been a wonderful man to me. He loved me unconditionally and I pushed and pushed without reason. I understand the rigorous school schedule because I lived it but I didn't understand the military mindset and dealing with life after war so I began studying the effects of war and volunteering at the VA hospital. I've learned a lot and although everyone is different, I feel more understanding for the situation and him now. He now says he doesn't want to be in any relationship with anyone for a long time because he has too much to deal with. I don't believe that's true because he still loves me, but I wasn't being the woman I should have been to him. I was the first relationship he's been in, in years and I messed it up being mean and disrespectful to him and not trying to understand. I don't want anything from him right now except to focus on adjusting to civilian life and accomplishing his goals. After God, this man is who I love most and I know he loves me. This has been hard for us both. I've taken active steps to change and I pray that God will speak to his heart and bring him back to me. We fell in love hard, no sex. Pure emotional and mental connection and he told me I helped him "feel" again. Everything we felt was so genuine and pure, definitely sent by God. I have messed up the blessing God sent me. All the while my now ex-boyfriend was patient with me, I pushed him and accused him and nagged him, knowing he's nothing like any of the other men I'd dated. God sent him to me and I've become a better and more courageous woman because of him. I've been on my hands and knees screaming out to God to heal us. We need God's grace desperately. I'm ready to go be with the man God made for me. And I need God to touch his heart and remind him of the love we share. I'm willing to start from the bottom with him, I just need that second chance to let my actions speak. I'm ready to be the woman I should have been to him. This reality check was necessary. Please pray for me and him. I need all the prayers and support I can get right now. Thank you all, God bless you. I'm keeping faith because I know God took us through this for a reason and if we come out, we'll be stronger than ever. Again thank you for the prayers.
