I know how you feel, so you don't need to feel alone! I have had friends who have done bad things to me, and they don't even say they're sorry. Forever I was against God and His ways thinking that I could do it on my own. I have come to know that trusting in the Lord with all of my heart has not only healed my sadness (the depression of being with those friends), but I have just become a better person; people have noticed too! I know sometimes it's hard because we don't receive an answer right away, but as hard as it is, God always knows what's best. I know it's difficult to understand, and I don't know why certain things happen to us, but God is with you. If you have God, anything is possible. I have insecurities too! We all do! My recent post was about how short I am! I am praying that I grow taller in Him, so that I can be more confident to radiate His love and kindness everywhere I go. Trust in the Lord, and your chains will be removed. I have been in your position. I felt like nothing was possible! But, I'm hear to tell you that God is the WAY. Not a way, but THE WAY! He has blessed me with blessings that are kind of those "Did that really just happen!" moments! Ah! He is SO good, and I will definitely be praying for you! God loves you, and I love you as a sister to sister in Christ. Lots and love!