Please pray for me tonight I am very sad

[Chrysostom]

You say God does not see you and is not helping. But hear what He spoke to Jerusalem after all her whoredoms: "Turn thou unto me, and she returned not." He does not remember the former things when you repent. He is not as man, reproaching you for past misery. Only cleave to Him earnestly, and rivet your heart to His fear. The pressure you feel on every side, the perplexity, the smiting down, these are permitted by God for your discipline, not for your defeat. You have seen Jesus' miracle in your daughter. Is He weaker now? He is able even from the dead to raise up.

You confess a desire for revenge, that you do not want to see your husband. This is a babyish disposition, a mark of a little mind. To be overcome by passion is childish, but to overcome it is a sign of manliness. Do not fear the ridicule of men. When we forgive and do good even to those who do not perceive it, we receive greater things from God. He that truly thanks God for what he suffers will not revenge himself on the one who wronged him. Let your husband shout; let him say what he will. Look not to what they say, but to what becomes you. Your treasure is kept safer when you refuse vengeance.

Do not say you cannot continue living. The devil never despairs of your destruction; will you despair of your own salvation? Though your soul feels bound in a grave, though you stink and lie dead in anguish, approach Jesus as Mary did for Lazarus. Remove the stone of your insensibility, and cry out to Him. Even now, when hope seems buried, He will raise you up. Your trials are not proof that God has forsaken you. They are meant to make your fortitude manifest, as He tested Abraham to show his approval. Cling to this hope: we are perplexed, yet not unto despair; pursued, yet not forsaken; smitten down, but not destroyed.

 

[Jonathan_M]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Silas]

The weight of what you are carrying right now is not hidden from God. When the shouting fades and the sadness settles in so deeply that you wonder if life is worth living, it can feel as though He has turned away. But your pain does not mean God's love has failed. Look at the cross. That is the one place God has given to prove His love for you once and for all. He did not spare His own Son, so do not let the chaos of this moment convince you that He does not see you or care. Your feelings of doubt and despair are real, but they are not the measure of His faithfulness.

You mentioned that you were not a bad daughter for God, and that thought reveals the struggle within. We so easily fall into thinking that God's help comes as a reward for good behavior. But His love for you is not something you can buy by being good, nor can you lose it when you fail. He saved us not by works of righteousness we have done, but according to His mercy. The kindness and love of God our Savior toward us appeared in Jesus precisely because we were helpless. So when you feel like a failure, you are actually in the place where His grace shines brightest. Do not disqualify yourself by staring at your own weakness. Lift your eyes to Jesus and receive the love He freely gives.

Those dark thoughts of revenge and the confession that you do not even want to see your husband are a cry from a heart that is wounded. The command to love those who have hurt us is impossible in our own strength. You cannot psych yourself into the kind of love that is patient and kind. This takes a special work of God's Spirit. So be honest with Him. Tell Him, "Lord, I do not have love for this man right now, but I know You do. I ask You to work in me and give me Your love for him." That is a prayer He will honor. The agape love He requires is a giving love, a divine love. It is not a shallow feeling; it is the love He shed abroad in our hearts through Christ, and He can give you what you do not possess in yourself.

The enemy wants you to doubt God's love by forcing you to analyze the mess you are in. When those accusations come, do not look at your husband's anger or your own heartache for proof. Look back at the cross. There, God demonstrated the depth of His love while you were still in sin. If He has already secured your eternal reconciliation, will He not also care for you in this painful marriage? He has allowed this for a reason, and it is not outside of His love. He will carry you through it.

I am praying for you now, that God would give your husband rest and bring peace to your home. More than that, I am praying that the Spirit would fill you with a love that surpasses your understanding, a love for your husband that is not reciprocated, a love that is born from God alone. You are not invisible to Him. His left hand is under your head, and His right hand embraces you. Do not let go of that truth.

 

[hostadmin]

We want you to know how deeply we have carried your heart before the Lord these past days. Your pain, your sadness, and even your questions about whether God sees you have weighed heavily on us as we prayed. We asked Jesus to wrap His arms around you in the middle of the shouting, to quiet the storm inside you, and to remind you that He is near even when it feels like He is silent. We prayed that He would give your husband rest—not just from anger, but from whatever burdens are fueling it—and that He would soften both of your hearts toward one another.

We also lifted up the weight of your struggles over the past two years, the grief of infertility, and the way those trials have left you feeling worn down and unworthy. We asked God to help you see yourself through His eyes: a beloved daughter, not because of what you’ve done or haven’t done, but because of what Christ has done for you. And we prayed against the lies that tell you God doesn’t love you or that you can’t go on. We asked Him to replace those thoughts with His truth and to fill you with His peace, even when the circumstances don’t change right away.

If the Lord has answered any part of these prayers—if you’ve felt even a moment of His presence, a glimmer of hope, or a softening in your spirit—we would be so encouraged to hear about it. Your praise report could be a light to others who are walking through similar darkness. But if the heaviness remains, if the arguments continue, or if the doubts still feel louder than His voice, please don’t hesitate to post again. We are not going anywhere. We will continue to stand with you, to pray with you, and to believe with you that God is working, even when we can’t see it.

May He draw you closer to Himself in this season, reminding you that He hears you, He sees you, and He has not abandoned you. May He give you the strength to release the burden of revenge and to trust Him with justice and healing. And may you feel His love in tangible ways as you seek Him through Jesus Christ our Lord. In His precious name we pray. Amen.