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What did He do?he did for me in this season
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What did He do?he did for me in this season
Thanks I pray then that those days will be shortened to 0. Every day of my life is agony, and I know there is no way for me to go back to God anyway because whenever I pray something He answers that I dont love Him enough and that I dont give my heart enough and only say words and because of that Hes not gonna answer anyway and that trough prophetic people (They are not bad people, I get on well with them, the reason I know they are prophetic is that they talk of me in church with out knowing it themselves. They address exactly issues I have and I have etc.....) And no wonder I dont love God enough - I have never experienced His love. I only know it theoretically - that bible tells me He loved me so much He died for me. But I have never experienced it. If all that I have ever experienced is rejection then no big wonder I dont love Him enough. Also no big wonder that I dont give my heart to Him. Because I am simply afraid to get rejection, disappointment, etc again. And if these things doesnt happen I wont get back to God anyway. And if I cant get back to God anyway then I could already die as well because God's never gonna answer my any prayer in my life and all my hopes and dreams just not gonna happen.because your days are numbered anyway
I cant do that even if I wish I could.Turn your eyes and heart to Jesus
No, Hes not. Post above explains why.Cry out to Jesus , He will answer you !
I don't know who these so called prophetic people are you you've been talking to but if they are telling you that you can't go back to god, they are dead wrong. God never ever stops loving us. It's us that give up on him. We think on a human level but god thinks on a higher and spiritual level. How can you say you don't love god enough? That I can't understand. You said you never experienced his love, well I use to say the same thing as well until I learned different. We experience his love everyday that we wake up. He is the one that wakes us up. If he didn't love you, he could have killed you a long time ago. I have experienced rejection a lot in my life but that doesn't mean god doesn't love me. If you read in the bible, he said he would never leave us or forsake us. It's always us that leaves him and forsakes him. We as humans feel that god has stopped loving us because when we ask him for something he don't jump up and answer when we want him too. God don't come when we want him too but he's always on time. God's thoughts are not our thoughts and his ways is not our ways. He thinks and acts on a much higher level than we could comprehend. You sound like you trust those prophetic people more than you do god. They are only people like you and I. They have to both die and answer to the same god we do. That is the devil that's telling god don't love you. Everybody experiences rejection sometime in their life. Some experience more than others. There are some prayers that god will not answer because he can see what we can't. He will not answer vain prayers or prayers that's not in our best interest. Without faith it is impossible to please god. Sometimes god test us and let us go through trials and tribulations just to see if we are going to stick with him. God did not promise us that life would always be easy. Wishing you would die is not the right way to think. If you die and your heart and soul is not right with god you will go to hell. You have choices here but if you die and go to hell you will never have a choice again.There are other people in a worse situation than yours. You need to start reading your bible everyday and god will talk to you. Also you sound like you only pray to god when things are going good. We have to keep praying even when we don't feel like it or things are not going good. That's the time to pray harder. I will leave you with this. Your life does not belong to you, it belongs to god. You can't tell god when to take your life because it belongs to him not you. It's his decision when he wants to end your life. Pray harder and have a blessed day.Thanks I pray then that those days will be shortened to 0. Every day of my life is agony, and I know there is no way for me to go back to God anyway because whenever I pray something He answers that I dont love Him enough and that I dont give my heart enough and only say words and because of that Hes not gonna answer anyway and that trough prophetic people (They are not bad people, I get on well with them, the reason I know they are prophetic is that they talk of me in church with out knowing it themselves. They address exactly issues I have and I have etc.....) And no wonder I dont love God enough - I have never experienced His love. I only know it theoretically - that bible tells me He loved me so much He died for me. But I have never experienced it. If all that I have ever experienced is rejection then no big wonder I dont love Him enough. Also no big wonder that I dont give my heart to Him. Because I am simply afraid to get rejection, disappointment, etc again. And if these things doesnt happen I wont get back to God anyway. And if I cant get back to God anyway then I could already die as well because God's never gonna answer my any prayer in my life and all my hopes and dreams just not gonna happen.
He carried me during my darkest hour... when I couldn't feel him, when I couldn't pray, he was there. He sent amazing people into my life to help me , to say a kind word, to encourage me, to take care of me. Every time I was at the end, I got a phone call, a message from the most unexpected persons. He took care of me in every way. I had all the medical attention that I needed, even though I couldn't afford it. I am forever grateful for his mercy and grace. Do you know that his love towards us is not dependent on us. No matter how good we are ... we can never prove ourselves worthy of his love. He loves us because he is God. He is perfect and so is his love. I leave this passage with you...What did He do?
Yes, Bible said we are to come to God like a child - trusting his father and not doubting in Him. But what If I dont have that kind of faith anymore because I have received to much rejection from God? Then I am unable to please Him. And if I am unable to please Him then I should not expect prayer to be answered. And if I should not expect prayer to be answered then there is no point in praying prayers such as "God, please give me faith" because it wont get answered anyway. And so nothing gonna change in my life.Without faith it is impossible to please god.
But what if I no longer have interest in that at all? If I would read something that I dont care about just because I have to wouldnt I then be hypocrite? Then it would clearly be because I want to receive something from God. At least right now it would be my only motivation. I dont have any pure/sincere motivation to get to know God in me anymore. Who knows maybe I didnt have it at first point. But God who knows what is in my heart knows that I am reading Bible just because I have to so He would not be moved by that. There used to be times when I sincerely wanted to remember and understand the the word of God. And when I read bible out of true interest and not because I have to, but if I would read it now it would only be because you told me to and not because I myself want it so much.You need to start reading your bible everyday and god will talk to you.
No, that is not true either. I pray a lot and even more when things are bad. I used to pray every day many times a day. So the total time spent on prayer was roughly hour or two per day. But now it is no longer so because I already expect prayer not to be answered (or answered with no depending on what you call answered prayer).Also you sound like you only pray to god when things are going good.
That's what makes me frustrated. I pray harder and harder and still am ignored. Most of time I dont even know the reason. Sometimes bible or other christians can tell me the reason but for many times I have received absolutely no reason for that. So It's extremely sad that I am ignored and I dont know why.That's the time to pray harder.
Well that doesnt seem to be my decision. For some reason I keep coming back to Him although every time I do I get to feel rejection again. If it were my decision I would already have forgotten Him and not posting on this site.Sometimes god test us and let us go through trials and tribulations just to see if we are going to stick with him.