Hi, I can't say that I know exactly how you feel, but I have felt like dying many,many times before. I have battled depression for most of my life and its been rough. During my times of darkness, sometimes lasting for years ... I've even "tried" to die. Saying it's not easy is an understatement but the fact that I am still here and have gotten better and still getting better, I know that the Lord wants me here.
Today I pray that the Lord will lighten your load. I pray that he will carry you like he did for me in this season.I pray that he will keep you safe.I pray that he will calm your mind.I pray for healing and strength to carry on. I pray that you will be delivered in the name of Jesus and his will be done in your life in Jesus name. I pray for relief and that he sends help to you in this dark hour. Above for all, I pray for his perfect will towards you In the name of Jesus I pray with thanks giving-Amen
I leave this with you... a poem that has touched me and I hope it touches you too.
Warm Hugs to you.
Nadine
Footprints
One night I dreamed a dream.
As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and one to my Lord.
After the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that at many times along the path of my life,
especially at the very lowest and saddest times,
there was only one set of footprints.
This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said once I decided to follow you,
You'd walk with me all the way.
But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me."
He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you
Never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you."
-Mary Stevenson