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Brenda222
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Please pray for me. I am so suicidal. I know the Lord is good. I pray and pray and pray for my job back because this is what I know how to do. How do I tell my daughter that in 6 days she will have to go back to live with her dad because mom doesnt have an apartment anymore? How do I get to a job when they are taking my car? How do I go to work presentable when I have nothing to wear? How do I pay the car insurance when they are taking my car? How do I tell my other kids that their mom couldnt take life so she checked out? How do I ever get another apartment when I have lost 2 before this one? I need prayer. I can't sleep in the car this time if I don't have my apartment because they are taking it. How does GOD not hear my cry for my employer that I left that I was hired in August does not call me back. I've prayed and prayed for my job back. The enemy talked me into leaving it. How does GOD not hear my cry. How does GOD bless me with a job that I let someone talk me into leaving. Why does the Lord not hear my cry. I can do this job. Is the world waiting for me to kill myself to then realize I was wrong? Why does the Lord not hear my cry for my job. I was wrong, why am I being so punished to lose everything and sleep on the streets? Why can't the Lord hear me? I have asked for forgiveness and I don't know if I am forgiven. Why don't the Lord touch the hearts of the people I sent the letter to in H.R. to please call me for a job? Will they call me for my job back once I'm dead? Why does the Lord not hear me? I dont want a handout from everyone. I want to work. I need this job because I can wear jeans. I don't have clothes to wear on a job and I can wear my jeans everyday. Thats why I need this job. I can make the money to get on my feet. Why does the Lord not hear my cry? Why am I gonna be homeless again and never get a place to stay if I don't get my job back. Why did I leave in the first place? The Lord blessed me with this job. Why am I waking up suicidal everyday? Why am I living? Why is the Lord not hearing me? Why why why? I think I will take myself out of this world. I cannot live like this daily, wondering why they wont give me my job back til Im dead and then they will offer it to me. I cannot wake up daily and spend the day applying for jobs I know I cant do or cant work because I have nothing but a pair of jeans to wear and I can wear them to my job I left. I cant spend my whole day looking for work and wondering how I will pay my bills or even have a place to sit with my child and sleep. I cant sleep on the streets this time. I really cant live like this. I believe in the Lord and know he is good but I cant understand why I have to continue to suffer like this. I cant deal with this life. I want to leave it. I know that I will wish I had not committed suicide when Im gone but I cant face life daily like this. I was wrong to leave my job. I asked for forgiveness. I cant live daily like this without going to work and having my job. Will they call me back when I have taken my life and see that they should have given me a job back. MY NAME IS SHARON. I THANK YOU FOR PRAYNG FOR ME. Please tell them that all I did was to pray for the Lord to give me my job back and asked him to touch their hearts to do it. Why do they have to prove a point by not giving me my job back. I am ready to check out. Thank you for praying for me. I cant live like this daily. I asked and prayed for my job. The Lord blessed me with it, I messed up, I guess I am being punished for what I did. THANK YOU FOR PRAYNG. I CANT DO THIS DAILY. I cant deal with this. I was happy on my job, I was wrong. I guess they will offer me my job back when Im dead and dont have to worry about a place to stay. Take care.
