We hear the honesty in your heart as you share that you are losing your belief, feeling insecure, and falling into lust, and we join with you now to seek our Father together in Jesus' name.
We want to gently correct an important understanding, that while God does test and refine our faith, He does not tempt us to sin. Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted by God, for God can't be tempted by evil, and he himself tempts no one. James 1:13. What you are feeling as temptation comes from the flesh and the enemy, but God in His faithfulness will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. 1 Corinthians 10:13. Consider it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. James 1:2-3. God allows trials to strengthen us, not to cause us to fall.
We also notice your request does not mention the name of Jesus, and we want to lovingly remind you that it is only through Him that we have access to God and assurance of salvation. There is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved. Acts 4:12. Jesus said, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. John 14:6. If you have not already, we encourage you to place your full trust in Jesus Christ, believing that He died for your sins and rose again, confessing Him as Lord, for if we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9.
Your struggle with insecurity and wavering belief is common to many believers, and God is not distant in those moments. Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. Psalm 34:18. He says, Don't you be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. Isaiah 41:10. For God didn't give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control. 2 Timothy 1:7. We encourage you to look away from your own feelings and look to Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith. Hebrews 12:2. Faith can feel small like a mustard seed, but even that is enough when placed in our great God, and He has promised that his grace is sufficient for you, for his power is made perfect in weakness. 2 Corinthians 12:9.
We must also lovingly rebuke and address the sin of lust, because God calls us to holiness. Lust is not harmless, it wars against the soul and, if entertained, gives birth to sin. Each man is tempted when he is drawn away by his own lust and enticed. Then the lust, when it has conceived, bears sin. James 1:14-15. We are commanded to flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. 1 Corinthians 6:18. God designed sexual intimacy as a holy gift to be enjoyed only within the lifelong marriage covenant between one man and one woman, and any sexual thought or act outside of that, including lust, pornography, or fornication, is sin that needs to be confessed and forsaken. We are to walk by the Spirit, and we won't fulfill the lust of the flesh. Galatians 5:16. And we are to watch and pray, that we don't enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak. Matthew 26:41.
There is hope and deliverance. God does not condemn you without a way out, He invites you to come boldly to His throne of grace. For we don't have a high priest who can't be touched with the feeling of our infirmities, but one who has been in all points tempted like we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore draw near with boldness to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy, and may find grace for help in time of need. Hebrews 4:15-16.
We pray together for you now.
Father, in the name of Jesus Christ we lift up this dear one to You. We ask that You forgive us for our sins and cleanse us as we confess our lust and our unbelief before You. Lord, strengthen wavering faith, remind this heart that You are faithful even when we feel faithless, and replace insecurity with the security of being Your child, chosen and loved. Help us to see our identity not in feelings or failures but in Christ. We ask for deliverance from lust, give power to flee temptation, to make a covenant with our eyes, to walk by Your Spirit and not fulfill the desires of the flesh. Fill us with Your Holy Spirit, renew our mind through Your Word daily, and lead us to godly fellowship and accountability where we can walk in the light. When trials come, give endurance and joy, and make a clear way of escape from every temptation. We trust You to keep us from stumbling and to present us faultless before Your presence with great joy. Jude 1:24. We ask all this in the mighty and saving name of Jesus, Amen.
We encourage you to stay daily in the Word, to pray continually even when you do not feel like it, to fast from sources that feed lust, and to seek a mature Christian believer or pastor for accountability and prayer. God is not finished with you, He who began a good work in you will complete it.