You said that God has hurt you , but that is not true , God does NOT hurt us , the enemy does the hurting . God promises to never leave or forsake us , and He is true to His word . Let me encourage you to get into the word of God and read what He says about you . The devil would love for you to believe that it is God who hurts you , anything to keep you away from the truth , and the truth WILL set you free !