We hear your cry, and we come before the throne of grace with heavy hearts, lifting you up in prayer. First and foremost, we must address the darkness that is pressing in on you—thoughts of ending your life are not from God. The enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy, but Jesus came that you might have life and have it abundantly (John 10:10). You are not beyond hope, and your life has value in the eyes of the Lord. The fact that you are fighting these thoughts shows that there is still a battle for your soul, and we stand with you in that fight.
You have confessed your wrongdoing, and that is the first step toward repentance. The Bible tells us, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9). God’s forgiveness is not earned by our works or our despair—it is given freely through the blood of Jesus Christ. You do not need to carry the weight of shame, for Christ bore it on the cross. "There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus" (Romans 8:1). But we must also address the reality of your actions. Scamming others is a violation of God’s command to love our neighbors as ourselves (Mark 12:31) and to walk in honesty (Proverbs 11:1). Repentance means turning away from sin and walking in a new direction. You say you have changed, and we believe you desire to do what is right. Now is the time to trust God’s provision, even when the path forward seems impossible.
The fear of humiliation, job loss, or homelessness is overwhelming, but God has not abandoned you. "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble" (Psalm 46:1). You mentioned that you are considering taking your own life, and we must rebuke that lie of the enemy with the truth of Scripture. Suicide is not the answer—it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and it cuts short the work God may still have for you. The Bible says, "For I know the plans I have for you, says Yahweh, plans for peace, and not for evil, to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11). Even in this valley, God is with you, and He can make a way where there seems to be no way.
You also mentioned that you have sought help through a crowdfunding page, but no one donated. While it is understandable to feel abandoned, we must remember that our hope is not in man but in God. "Cursed is the man who trusts in man, and makes flesh his arm, whose heart departs from Yahweh. For he shall be like a shrub in the desert, and shall not see when good comes" (Jeremiah 17:5-6). Instead of looking to others for financial rescue, we encourage you to seek God’s wisdom in how to move forward. Proverbs 3:5-6 says, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths." This may mean facing consequences, but God can use even this for your good if you surrender it to Him.
We also want to address the group that has formed against you. It is painful to feel betrayed or targeted, but Jesus warned us that the world would hate us because it first hated Him (John 15:18-19). Vengeance belongs to the Lord (Romans 12:19), and He will judge justly. Your focus must be on walking in integrity from this point forward, regardless of how others treat you. "If it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men" (Romans 12:18). This does not mean you should not seek justice or protection if you are being threatened unlawfully, but it does mean your heart should not be consumed by bitterness or retaliation.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with broken hearts for our brother who is in deep distress. Lord, we ask that You would surround him with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). We rebuke the spirit of despair and suicide in the name of Jesus, and we declare that no weapon formed against him shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17). Father, we thank You that You are near to the brokenhearted and save those who have a contrite spirit (Psalm 34:18). We ask that You would forgive his sins, cleanse him from all unrighteousness, and restore his soul.
Lord, we pray for practical wisdom in this situation. Show him the steps he needs to take to make restitution where possible, and give him the courage to face the consequences of his actions with humility. Provide for his needs according to Your riches in glory (Philippians 4:19), and open doors for him to find a way forward. We ask that You would soften the hearts of those he has wronged, that they may see his repentance and extend grace where possible.
Father, we also pray for protection over his mind. Guard him from the lies of the enemy that tell him he is worthless or that death is the only escape. Remind him that he is fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14) and that You have a purpose for his life. Strengthen his faith, Lord, and help him to hold on to Your promises. Surround him with godly counsel and support, even if it is just one person who can walk with him through this valley.
We ask all these things in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, the only name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12). Thank You, Lord, that You are a God who hears our cries and answers our prayers. We trust You to work all things together for good for those who love You and are called according to Your purpose (Romans 8:28). In Jesus’ name, we pray. Amen.
You are not alone in this. We encourage you to reach out to a local church or a trusted believer who can walk with you through this time. If you do not have access to a church, there are Christian helplines and organizations that can provide support. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (in the U.S.) is 1-800-273-TALK (8255), and they can connect you with resources. You may also consider contacting organizations like TheHopeLine or Focus on the Family for biblical counseling.
Above all, cling to Jesus. He is the author and finisher of your faith (Hebrews 12:2), and He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5). Your story is not over, and God is not done with you. Keep fighting, keep praying, and keep trusting in Him. We will continue to stand with you in prayer.
